I worked out with the trainer yesterday and it was great. I managed to weigh in at 236. So that means I LOST 2 lbs over Christmas! Even though I weighed 2 lbs more than the lowest weight my trainer has seen me at, he said I looked the best he has ever seen! That definitly motivated me. After working out with him for an hour and 15 minutes I did 40 minutes of some intense cardio. I just got back from doing an hour of cardio at the Y. I might be going back with my mom later tonight. I am working out with my trainer tomorrow too!!!!

I went and ordered my bridesmaid dress for my friend's wedding. This summer I was able to fit into a size 16. I tried that on again and it still fits, but it fit a lot better, so even though hopefully I will still continue to lose weight, and it will be too small before the wedding and I will have to have it altered =)

The holidays have been rough eating wise. Let's face it. Since September it has been rough eating wise. I think the gym has been my one saving grace. I was back up to 238 last Tuesday. Let's hope that I can at least stay the same with all the Christmas goodies I have been eating.

I live in a relatively small town. I can not go one place here in Charleston without seeing at least one person I know. Just because I see them doesn't mean I talk to them though. At the movies on Christmas I saw several people I knew and it felt good to be 60 lbs lighter. I have also been trying to work out more while out home and I have seen several people at the gym that I know. I know this is not very nice, (if you were a cheerleader in high shcool I am sorry for what I am about to say) but I have seen several former cheerleaders from my high school who have gained A LOT of weight since graduation. I know this is some sort of messed up vindication or something, but it is comforting to know that everyone or mostly everyone (even formerly skinny cheerleaders) has weight problems, not just me. I had a pretty on points day except for the 4 pieces of See's candy I had. Tomorrow is a new day and I will be working out with my trainer =)

Ok, so I finished finals with a bang (I got a 4.0! this semester). My goal was to work and go to the gym last week while I stayed in Nashville. Instead of going to the gym I worked a lot. I mean a lot. So I only worked out on Tuesday of last week and I ate crap! I weighed 233 last Tuesday. This week I weighed 238. When I got back home I was afraid to call my trainer because I knew how badly I had been doing. Good thing he is awesome and he called me Monday night to see if I was back in town. I maid an appointment to work out with him yesterday. I was honest with him and told him I had not worked out in a week and I had been eating crap. He started to me out slow, but realized that even though I hadn't worked out in a week, I had lost any of my ability. That was comforting, but I know that is way to long to go without working out. So yesterday I started to get my stuff together. I worked out with the trainer for an hour and then did an hour of cardio. Today I did 30 minutes of weights and 30 minutes of cardio. I have also been eating lots of vegetables. I just need to watch out for the Christmas candy, cookies, pies, etc.

I would love to be in the 220's by New Years Day, but that might be a pretty lofty goal.

Finals will be over tomorrow at 6:15 PM!!!! I have done amazingly well in the not over eating department during finals. I even made it the gym today and yesterday! I did however splurge and have a beer at the Will Hoge show at the Ryman followed by a late night trip to Wendy's. Thank goodness I don't do that all of the time.

I really need to step it up a little bit. I need to start losing more weight. I know I can do it. I know how to do it. It is just a matter of actually doing it and sticking with it. When I am home I want to spend about 2 hours each day at the gym. I want to do lots of cardio and start running again. I ran about a mile yesterday and it felt so good.

With my last final done tomorrow I will have very few worries. I will be able to devote all of my time to work and working out at the gym through Saturday. I will be driving back to WV on Sunday.

I am out!

ok, I am still alive, things have gotten busy again. I was going to post more, but I am too tired. I am not really on any sort of "plan" right now. I would just like to see the 220's by January 1st. More to come later this week! I promise!

Back down to 236. At least I know I can pretty much stay maintain my weight. I would just like to lose some now! I know what I need to to do it is actually doing it. I am still going to the gym about 5-6 days a week for at least an hour each day. I am going to Memphis this weekend. I am expecting to have amazing ribs and alcohol while there as well as seeing Will Hoge. I can not wait! I am not even going to try to keep track of points while I am there =)

Ok so Tuesday I was 240, but I am pretty sure that was mostly water weight. Not too worried about it. I did make it to the gym yesterday for an hour and a half, but I won't be able to go because my roomate and I are going to a concert tonight.

Bridget Jones comes out today!!!!! I will be seeing it tomorrow and I can't wait! =)

I was at 240 this monring, but it is also TOM. I am not too worried about it.

WWOD: What would Oprah do? Whenever I face a struggle in my weight loss journey I am going to contimplate what would Oprah do? Maybe I will even make a bumper sticker or a bracelet! In all seriousness though, she is a true inspiration on her last go around at weight loss. Hopefully she can stick with it. I hope I have not offended anyone by saying this, I think it might be something that can help me along the journey.

So, I sort of how this guy in my life right now. My would call the dinner I had with this guy on Thursday a date. But I am not so quick to call it that. I have really been struggling in the weight loss department the past two months. All of the sudden this guy comes along and I am snacking less and making what I feel are better choices. So is it bad that this guy has given me the motivation to stick to the plan? Also, he is a transfer so he has no clue what I looked like earlier this year.

Oh yeah I am not disciplined enough to journal everything I eat in this blog. I am having a hard enough time just trying to write it down on paper let alone another place. I think I might occasionally post what I eat though.

Friday is the one day of the week I don't go to the gym. So I am going when I get off work in about a half hour.

ok, this morning I weighed 237. Am I upset? Nope. At least I am still in the 230's.

So you are probably wondering what I ate yesterday, so here it is:

Points Range: 26-31
Breakfast:
1 Strawberry Yogurt 2 points

Lunch/ Snacks:
1 Cup Cheerios 2 points
1 peach Yogurt 2 points
1 PB&J sandwhich 3 points
1 gala Apple 1 point

Evening:
Vegetable Lasagna 4 points
Cauliflower and Green beans 1 point
Pretzels 2 points
Pepperonni Hot Pocket 6 points
Little Debbie Snack Cakes 7 points

Total Points used for the day: 31
Excercise minutes: 60

Ok, this is going to be boring, but starting tomorrow I will be posting my food journal here. Hopefully it will keep me more accountable and maybe my readers (do I really have any?) might get some ideas or they can offer some suggestions. I am actually looking forward to this.

I am addicted to trying on clothes. Last Tuesday I was 236. I am not going to let myself try on any of the clothes in my closet that "just don't fit yet" until I lose 10 more lbs and I am 226 lbs. Hopefully this will provide me with enough insentive to get my butt in gear!

I am not losing weight at all right now. I guess I should be happy that I am not gaining. It is really hard because I feel like I want to eat everything right now. I am still going to the gym so that is my one saving grace right now. When I look at my weight loss journey thus far I am actually pretty happy that I am not losing as fast as I once. was. My body is adjusting and I have learned a completly different lifestyle. I sitll want junk every once in a while, but I am now eating foods that are much healthier for me like fruits and veggies.

Why couldn't I just cut all this fat off my body without plastic surgery????

man things are a little rough weight loss wise right now, but I am still in the game. The month of October brought a total combined loss of 0 pounds! Now, this isn't great, but at the same time I am extatic to have not gained. On Tuesday I was 236. I really need to work on my eating habits for the rest of the week.

Tonight I am going to watch the OC and eat Chinese food with my roomate. I can't wait for October to be over with so there won't be as much Halloween candy around.

Things are going very well. I have gotten back into the swing of going to the gym and I love it! I am also eating a lot better (i.e. I am getting my dairy in and fruits and veggies!). I just got back from 1 1/2 hours at the gym. I was there for 2 hours yesterday. It had been so long since I spent that much time there, but it was great. Hopefully the clothes that are a little snug will be fitting in no time! Halloween is a hard time though because of all the candy and yummy snacks. I am definitly using portion control. I will still allow myself to have sweets and such, but only in moderation. However at work on Friday I had about 5 fun size pieces of candy that I so did not need. Oh well. Have a great evening everybody!

Dannon Light 'n Fit Rasberry yogurt is amazing! I am eating some right now along with my water. I am slowly getting back into the swing of things. I will be going to the gym this afternoon. Now that my 2 night classes are done with, I should be able to go to the gym on those days now. I just need to get my stuff together to get back on the road to weightloss.

Whoever said weightloss was easy? No one as far as I know or we would all be skinny. Well, I definitly know it's not and I have gained back 11 lbs. Damn, that seems like a lot! I know I have been eating crap, but I didn't think that much would come back that fast! so I am back to 247. Well that is what the scale said this morning. I debated about evening weiging in this morning, but it had to be done. Man oh man. I need to get back on plan big time! I know I have been talking about it, but it has been really hard. I am going to go to the grocery store tonight and pick up some things I need like fruit and veggies. No eating out for me this week!

Today is a new day. I have my calculator out again and I am writing my points down. The only bad thing about today, was I couldn't drag my butt to the gym. Tomorrow I will go! A friend of mine who is also doing WW gave me (well I paid her $5) a pair of size 16 Banana Republic jeans. They fit but they are tight. It will be nice when they fit. I am not going to but any new jeans until I can get them in a size 16. I really don't care if I have to wear the same jeans for the next 3 months. Oh well at least I will be saving money. Tonight I am going out to dinner, but I allready know what I am going to get: a salad, no fries for me!

I have fallen off the horse BIG time. It all started with my birthday lunch and it has been all down hill from there. However, tomorrow is a new day! I will get back into the swing of things because I know I can do this! I might be back in the 240's, but I will not let that get me down. Here is to an OP day tomorrow!

The past three days have been absolutely awful in terms of eating. Now I know it was my birthday on Tuesday, but I have no excuse for eating the way I did yesterday and today. However, tomorrow is a new day and I have four days to get back on plan before I weigh in again! I am still shooting for that goal of 232 by October 14th when I meet with my trainer again. I tried on a size 16 pair of pants today at the gap and they were a bit too small, but soon enough I will get there. One thing is that I have huge thighs! argh. ok, I am off to bed, I have a busy 3 days ahead of me.

Mom it's my birthday!!! Today I am 22! And I weigh 236!!! I can't even remember when I weighed 236. I fit into a size 16 skirt from the Gap this weekend too! So what if it was stretch and just a little tight. I bought the skirt and I will be rockin' it soon enough. Purple corduroy for $12.99. I can't wait till I can fit into everything there! I even made it to the gym this morning and did the elliptical for an hour =) I am off to get ready for class. Sorry for the lack of posting, I have been quite busy over the past week. Hopefully I can update more this week!

239, that is what was on the scale this morning and I am ok with it. I have been eating amazingly well the past few days and I know a loss will hopefully come next week. I made it to the gym this morning before 6:30. I got in a good hour of studying while I was on the elliptical. Tomorrow I will go in the evening. I am off to class in a few. Ciao!

I had a melt down last night and totally binged! I should have just gone to bed. I would only say I ate about 12 points, but that is still 12 more points then I needed. After crying for a little bit this morning (unrelated to the binge) I went to the gym and I am feeling great! I had to FF eggo waffles for breakfast. I was on the elliptical for 35 minutes at 10 resistance. I got on the treadmill and walked for 40 minutes at 4.0 MPH and at a 3 incline. When I got back I made a grilled cheese and had some tater tots. I know my food today hasn't been the most weel rounded, but I am doing the best I can. At dinner I plan to get a couple of servings of veggies and some protien! Yumm!

I am a little worried on Tuesday I might not be 239 any more. I am worried that I will have gained. I really don't want to gain anymore =(

My goals for this week are to go to the gym Tuesaday-Sunday and to not eat at the curb cafe. When I eat there, I always go WAY over my points!

Just because I can fit into, say a size 18 pair of jeans, doesn't mean they look good on me. I tried on a size 18 pair of jeans I got from NY and Company at the begin of the summer because they were $8 and the look awful! I have huge thight and these Jeans are just not flattering. I didn't know whether to cry because I can fit into them or to cry because they looked so awful on my body. argh!

I have had a pretty good OP day today. I made it to the gym and did weights for 20 minutes, walked for 25 minutes and ran for 15 minutes. I had a yummy lunch and I have only used 14 points so far today. I am not sure what I am going to have for dinner though, but I have plenty of points to play around with. I need to go to Krogers and get some groceries. I'll probably do that in an hour or so. I just spent a little over an hour cleaning my room and my bathroom and I am tired! I think I will take a quick nap.

Yesterday was such a BAD eating day. It started at just fine. I had my normal bowl of oatmel and snack to tide me over until I could eat a late afternoon lunch. Well, I walked through an event serving food and grbbed two mini sandwiches and chocolate chip cookie. Ok fine, not in the plan, but nothing I didn't have points for. So, I had brought all my work out clothes with me to campus so I could go to the gym when I finished my afternoon classes at 3:15. Instead my job at the dean's office needed me to come and help. So no workout and I made plans with my roomate to just eat on campus. So I didn't feel like a taco salad without the shell because I had had it on Tuesday. SO I got french fries, chicken fingers, AND a another cookie! Man oh man. And to top it off when I got back to my apartment at about 8 PM I snarffed down on some tater tots and a kudos bar.

This morning I was supposed to go to the gym. I had all my stuff ready, but when 6 AM rolled around I was just too tired. So now I am at work fighting the urge to go get a chicken taco salad (without the shell of course!). I just ate my peanut butter crunch pria bar and my fuit cup. I will be off from work in an hour and then I can go to the gym =) When I get back from the gym lunch time! I am not sure what I am going to have. Maybe I will have a frozen meal with some veggies.... hmm something to think about.

239 Baby!!!!!!!! Goodbye 240's!!!!!!!

I have discovered that one of the best ways for me to stay on plan is to journal. Go figure! SO, today I will start journaling again. August 26th was the last time I journaled. That is almost 3 weeks without journaling! I am expecting good things from this tried and true experiment. So, I am still at 241. I have about a month to lose 9 lbs. My trainer would like to see me at 232. I know he won't be upset or anything if I am not there, but I think it would be quite nice to be there =)

Also, I will hopefully be posting pictures of myself at various points along the way sometime soon. Now keep in mind these aren't "progress pics" but casual pics taken amongest friends =)

Homework is calling...

The scale read 241 this morning and I am ok with that. =) I just got back from the gym and man did it feel good. A week break is a long time. I am going to go in the morning tomorrow before class. At the gym tonight I saw one of the student workers who I saw last week at lunch. When I saw him last week he said he hadn't seen me in a while and asked me if I was still working out. I told him I was, but not at the same time everyday because of my crazy schedule and the fact that the gym is sooooo crowded right now. He told me I should come on the weekends. So, tonight he was pretty excited to see me and asked if I would be coming at this time all the time. I told him I wasn't sure. I am not really sure if I am reading to much into this or if he is just being friendly.

On another note, one of the greatest compliments I recieved over the past week was from my roomate. Upon my return from Seattle when she was picking me up at the airport she told me she hardly recognized me because I looked so skinny =) Man that felt good and only keeps me motivated =)

So not weigh in this morning. It will just have to wait for a few more hours. I was planning on going to the gym this morning but I decided right before I fell asleep last night that I could really use the extra sleep. Well I got plenty of extra sleep as I woke up at 9:20 for my 9:30 class. I rushed to get ready and was about 10 minutes late. I have a feeling I will either stay the same or gain. I ate sooooooo bad this weekend. But man was it good. I ate out everyday I was in WA except for the one home cooked meal I had at my aunt and uncles. Oh well. It is not like I do that all the time. Actually by the time Monday rolled around I was sort of sick of eating all the fatty foods and craved some veggies and water. I did drink too. But that was worth it too. About the only excercise I had the whole weekend was walking up the lawn from the floor seats and walking to the parking lot. Tomorrow I WILL make it to the gym =)

241 baby! Now if I can only manage to lose some weight at the Gorge! =) 6 days in the Pacific Northwest. Mmm Mmm Good!

Emotionally yesterday was a weird day. I planned to go out to a bar with one of my friends so I watched what I ate to have enough points to drink at night. However, I don't think I ate enough and I no longer know my tolerance. Next time I am going to drink an alcoholic drink and then a pop and just alternate the two. About 2 hours before I almost called my friend and told her I wasn't going, but then I decided I needed to go. I am glad I went! Some of my friends from school were there and one of the guys brought his sister. Somehow, my weight was brought up. I don't know if I said something or if she said something. But she said that her brother had told her I had lost a lot of weight. Also, one of the other guys had said something to my friend that I had lost a lot of weight but he didn't want to say anything to me because he didn't want me to slap him. hahaha So people are noticing. Sometimes I still feel like I look the same and it is hard when I feel that way. Also, I feel like I don't have "going out" clothes. I was trying to explain this to my mom this evening and she had a hard time getting it. I ended up wearing a pair of jeans and a black boat neck 3/4 length sleeved shirt. I have decided that I am tall and there really isn't anything I can do about, so instead of wearing flip flops or flats I wore my boots. Go me! Yeah sometimes it is fun. I am sure I looked like a freak.

I was looking at someone signature on the weight watchers board. They were 5'10 and 187 lbs and a size 10! That is really weird to think that someday I might actually be able to wear a 10. I just want to get out of the 240's!

Blah! Another fat day. Please make it go away. Pretty please????

Today, just felt like a "fat day." I picked out an outfit that used to be one of my favorites, but it just doesn't fit right anymore. It was pretty simple: a pair of jeans, a black v neck t, and a striped zip up hoodie sweater. The black shirt was too big and the sweater, just doesn't feel right anymore. I did get a complement on the sweater though. Even though my clothes were too big, I still felt fat. Hopefully that was just a one day thing and I will wake up feeling awesome! =) I gained 1 lb this week so that puts me back at 245. I really am not suprised considering all the crap I ate over the past week. So maybe I will actually lose this next week if I stay on plan. I did have mexican tonight, but other than that splurge, I did amazingly well food wise. I even made it to the gym for an hour this morning before work! That was no easy task considering I was there before 7:30 AM. I think Tuesday and Thursday will be my early work out days.

Gorge is coming up and it would be so exciting if I managed to lose instead of gain for the 5 days I am in WA.

School starts tomorrow and I allready packed my lunch and got my oatmeal packet out for breakfast. I work from 8:30-12:30 and then class from 1:00-3:15. I will come back to my apartment for a little bit and probably take a nap. Then back to campus for a business thing with free food!!! I am sooo looking forward to the pinapple and strawberries that I know they will have!

ok I need to get some sleep before my big day tomorrow.

Man oh Man have I been slacking off! I really need to start keeping track of my points. When I don't I tend to maintain instead of lose. Not exactly the plan. I have had some pretty intense craving over the past few days. I also need to count out my portions and not just grab from the bag. I did have Wendy's this week. However, I haven't had fast food in a while. I find myself eating less and less of it. I no longer go get fast food when I don't know what to have for dinner. I will find something to make myself. School starts on Wednesday and I am really excited to get back on a schedule so I will have some structure to my life again. My goals for this week are to count out portion sizes, stay within my points range and excercise Monday-Thursday and Saturday and Sunday!

I am off to bed!

I maintained at 244 this week. Yesterday was not good! I did have a spicy chicken sandwhich and fries from Wendy's that I had planned on, but I did not plan on all the eating I did after I got back from the show last night. Oh well, today is a new day. I plan to do much better point wise for the rest of the week. Tomorrow will be tough though because I might be going drinking. School starts next Wednesday and I will start to get back on a regular schedule. I didn't make it to the gym this morning so I will be going later this afternoon!

Grazing is a major problem for me as well as eating late at night, but I am working on it!

hmmm, I didn't make it to the gym on Thursday or Friday, but I have made it every day since Saturday. I have been trying to eat on plan too! Yesterday I had guacamole and chips from Baja Fresh. If there is one thing I can never get enough of it is guacamole. Yum!!!!!!!! Today I did interval running. OH MY GOD! I thought I was going to die. Well not really, but I definitly pushed myself which is what I need. I started out just planning on running for 15 minutes at 6 mph, but then I rembered reading about the couch to 5k running plan. ( I would post the link, but I can't firgure out this whole new blogger thing. If you are interested just let me know) Well day 1 is interval training, but I couldn't remember the exact times. So, I got week one and week 2 confused. I ran for 90 seconds at 7 mph and walked for 60 seconds at 4 mph. I should have only been running for 60 seconds and walking for 60 seconds. Oh well, Wednesday will seem like a breeze!!!

I weigh in tomorrow hopefully I will lose a pound or two. I am off to eat some din din! =)

So on Tuesday the scale was at 244!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really can't believe that. I know I don't feel any different. But, after a good weigh in I always seem to get of plan a little bit. Oh well, tomorrow is a new day. I didn't make it to the gym this morning because I worked for 2 hours before I interned. However, I will be going tomorrow. I met up with my friend Erin and her mother for dinner tonight. Erin is from WA and transfering to UT. We met on the WW student lounge board. I had some yummy gorgonzola chicken pasta that was soooooo not on points, but it was so worth it.

I hope I can maintain 244 or even lose some more by next Tuesday =)

I slept in this morning. When I did get up I showered and got ready to go to my internship. My appetite is still not back 100%. Before I left I had a fruit tart. I was gone for 5 hours and I had a chocolate chip gronola bar at work. I then went to the gym. I like the mornings a lot better. It just isn't as crowded and I don't have to wait for anything. I did weights for about 40 minutes and then ran for a total of 20 and walked for 20 minutes. I can back and had a dinner of lite hot dogs and sour cream pringles. I know, not the healthiest thing, but it was good =) I am off to bed =)

I totally binged tonight on tortilla chips and guacamole. Man do I not feel not so hot right now. Considering I only ate that and a nutra-grain bar this morning, I am not beating myself up over it. Tomorrow is a new day =) My next goal is to be 232 by the time I go home in October to work out with my trainer.

This week has been a hard one for me emotionally. When I look in the mirror I still see the old (as in "fat") Sarah. Now, I know I am no where near skinny, but I have lost a considerable amount of weight. One night in West Palm Beach someone had taken some digital pictures, I remember looking at them and so surprised at how I looked in them. I couldn't believe it was me. I wonder if other people do that. At times I feel like I still look the same as I did a year ago. On the other hand, it is hard when people notice a difference in my weight. Usually it is the girls who will say something. Guys never say anything, but I wonder if they notice? Who knows. I guess the whole issue of always seeing myself as fat is something I will be dealing with for a long time.

On tap for tomorrow: I am going to the gym and then interning. No binging! =)

I am sick right now. My mom think I have a bad strain of the flu that is going around. Over the past 3 days I have had less than 20 points each day. I have no appetite. Oh well. It will come back, it always does ;)

Oh my gosh!! I had such a great time in West Palm Beach. Besides all the drinking I did, food wise I didn't do so bad except for 2 pieces of pizza on Saturday and Sunday night. I even survived the amazing breakfast buffet and went only once! Other than that I really didn't eat much. I amazingly maintained at 252!!! It must have been all the dancing in the front row that helped me out =) I am off to starwood to see DMB tonight!

I am off to West Palm Beach to soak up some rays and see DMB =)

Eating wise the past couple of days have not been that bad.  During the day it is very easy to stay on points because I am busy and have to plan out when I eat.  However, night time is completely different story when I have nothing to do.  I need to get some self control for the evenings.  I have been to the gym for the past 3 days I have been back at school.  I think I might walk outside a bit tomorrow to work on my tan a bit.

At the gym yesterday I had loaded 270 lbs on to my seated leg press.  Since the machine itself is about 56 lbs, total I did about 326 lbs.  I did 2 sets of 10 which is what I was doing with my trainer at home.  The unusually thing was that as I was loading the weight on these 2 guys doing free weights stopped and watched me.  I am not joking but one of the guys was totally staring.  He then said to me something along the lines of wow that is a lot weight on there.  I wish I could do that.  Do you play sports??????????  ahahhahahaha.  Someone asking me this.   And from a basketball player at my school no less.  I am on my way to a hotttt looking Sarah.  I just smiled and told him I did it to get in shape =)

Forgive me, for it has been 10 days since my last post.  Life gets hectic and then it settles down.  The good news:  I was home for 2 weeks and did not gain or lose any weight!!!!!!  Boy did I eat out a lot and a bunch of stuff I usually never eat.  The bad news:  I am still at 252.  My goal was to be at 250 by WPB.  I am not sure it is going to happen, plus I might be doing some drinking tonight.  I worked out with the trainer twice =)  When I go home in October he wants me to be at 232.  I think I can do it!  Ok sorry for the teaser.  I have to get ready for Muzik Mafia!

Eating at home is rough!  It seems that at home I have so many more choices than I do at school!   I have been helping with crafts at vacation bible school with my mom and it is in the evenings ans dinner was served.  Definitly not point friendly foods.  Since I got home on Tuesday I have managed to get some form of excercise in even if it is just walking for 30 minutes.  Yesterday I went to the Y and I ran for 24 minutes straight at 5.7 mph!!!!!!!!!  Woah!  That is about 2.25 miles.  I am sure I will be ready for the 10k next July!
 
Yesterday I went with my friend who is getting married and 2 of the other bridesmaids to pick out and try on dresses.  Now when it comes to something like this I really don't care what I have to wear.  I will just go with the flow.  Since I had no clue what size I was, I just grabbed a bunch of different sizes to try on.  I ended up being able to fit into a size 16!  Now it was a little tight, but nonetheless it still zipped up.  I won't have to order it until late December, so that still gives me time to lose some more weight.
 
I am meeting with my trainer tomorrow and I can't wait to see him!

So on Saturday I went to Chik-a-Filet at the mall with my roomate. I had a grilled chicken sandwhich and some waffle fries. The sandwhich was ok and so were the fries. Nothing spectacular. In fact, after a couple of fries I could really taste the oil. After dinner I went to the Great American Cookie Company. I have been craving a Doozie for what seems like months now. A doozie is 2 cookies with frosting in the middle. Boy was it good!!!!! But it sure is a doozie points wise- 12 points! Shopping wise I got a shirt size XL from NY and Company that I have been eyeing since may. It is what I would like to classify as "booty gear." But this is tasteful booty gear. It has only one sleeve, it is black, and on the one sleave it is connected with this silver ring. Hmm I wonder if that makes any sense?

On Sunday, my friend was in town, so I have been playing tour guide. I splurged when we went to the Pancake Pantry. I had strawberry pancakes AND hash brown. Man was it good too =) I showed them all around Nashville. For dinner we went to Blackstone brewery. I had never been there before. It was pretty good. I got a cobb salad. I used the fork in the dressing method. Overall, I think I made a pretty good choice considering my options. Later we went drinking downtown. My "drinking" consisted of Diet Coke. Even though I didn't drink alcohol I still had a good time. I definitly had a good time playing foosball and I was the best player out of the three of us =)

Also on Sunday I got this really cute black skirt for $15 from the Gap outlet. Today I got a white wind coat from the Gap that I am in love with =)

That's all for now =)

I am having a rough day today. I really don't have anything pressing to do nor do I really want to do anything. I got up and was at the gym by about 9:30. I did my ab routine and 30 minutes of weights for the arms. Then I hopped on the treadmill and ran for a combined total of 23 minutes at 5.7 mph. I also walked for the remainder of the time so I was on the treadmill for 40 minutes. After the treadmill I got on the elliptical and was on that for 50 minutes. I came back to my apartment and took a shower. I was supposed to go to a friends pool for the afternoon, but it rained =( Since one of my good friends from WV is coming for a few days I started to clean the living room, kitchen, my bedroom, and my bathroom. Also did some laundry. I had lunch and a few snacks and I have had 15 total points for the whole day. I am not hungry I am jsut bored. Previously I would have eaten when I was bored, but not anymore!

I was talking with my mom last night complaining about not having a boyfriend. Of course she told me I want one so bad and it will happen when I least expect it. She also told me that losing weight isn't a cure all. I am aware of this, but I think part of me hopes that if I lose weight I will be more attractive and get a guy. argh!

I am buying my tour shirt in a size Large. That's right. You read correctly. No more buying an XL, wishing that had a XXL. I am allready wearing som L t-shirts, so I can't wait for it even though I won't buy it until the Gorge.

All day yesterday I did pretty well points wise. I even went out for pizza! I had pesto pizza which is one of my favorites!!!! After pizza I drove around a bit with my friends and then we went to a pool party. Suprisingly it was cool and I had a good time even though I was the "fattest" girl there. I did have my size 18 jeans on though. Soon, well not like in a week, but by them time I am done losing weight I would love to be a size 10 or 12. I am not sure if that will happen. Of course I would love to be a 8, but that doesn't look possible.

Even though we were at a poool party I did not swim. I didn't have my suit and I don't think I would have wanted to wear it because it doesn't fir right anymore. I had fun, I didn't feel awkward and it was great to get out and meet some new people.

Today I went to the gym at 9 and did weights for about 35 minutes and then got on the treadmill and did my routine on that. Last night while I was at the pizza place I thought the server looked familar but I couldn't place him. I realized that he goes the gym pretty much every morning, but he gets there after me. I told my friends that I thought it was funny that I new his workout routine, but I didn't know his name. Well he introduced himself to us, so now I know it. Also, my friend who never goes to the gym started talking to him saying that he looked really familar and asked if he went to Belmont. He said yes and then she said that's where I have seen you, at the gym! hahahaha. he then started talking about how he goes in the mornings because it gets pretty crowded in the evening. Ah well at least I have some more info on the eye candy at the gym!

I caved in. Last night I had a full size Baby Ruth Candy Bar. ahahahahahah. Ok it was good, but after I finished it I thought "man i snarfed that down pretty quick. I didn't even savor it." I can see now how easily it is to pack on the pounds. I still have the wrapper on my desk because I need to calculate the points and journal it, but for some reason I can't find my points calculator.

I got up this morning and went to the gym. I ran again the same as I did last night and then hopped on the elliptical for 45 minutes.

*Note: found caluclator and it was 7 points! Never again!*

Why I Will Not Date Boys Who Go to My School

So I was thinking about this subject yesterday at the gym as I was looking around at the guys in the gym. My feeling is that if they couldn't approach me when I was fatter but they could approach me after I lost some weight I don't think I would want to date them. Hmm, I don't think that made sense. Of course if the crush asked me out that would be a completly different situation since he has known me since the first day of school... So basically I want a boyfriend that doesn't go to my school!

I really am becoming a different person. Last night I had to take the extra credit test for my physics class that could replace my lowest grade if I did better on it. Well I didn't =( It was late and I was stressed so I made myself a PB and J sandwhich. WHOA! That was the first time I had eaten something because I was stressed in ALONG time! And waht did I eat? A sandwhich made with all natural peanutbutter! I even skimmed the oil off the top to make it lower in fat. Now I am not saying what I ate was ok, or that I needed to eat, I have just noticed some changes in my behavior.

I didn't go to bed last night until 1 AM or so. I woke up late and got to the gym around 9:20 AM. I did weights for 50 minutes and then I debated about going back home or doing cardio. I finally decided I would stay and get some cardio in. Now I was deciding between the treadmill and the elliptical. The elliptical won and I stayed on that bad boy for an hour. I went back to my place showered, had some lunch, and then went to work. I took my gym clothes with me because I was just going to stay on campus after work and go to my strength and tone class after. So after work I change into my workout clothes and go up to the room and it is CLOSED because they are redoing the floor!!! So I debated for a second about what to do. I have no clue why I did this, but I went back to the gym and got on the treadmill! I ran for 15 minutes, walked for a couple minutes and then ran for a little more than 6 minutes. I RAN 2 miles this evening. I would have never imagined! Ok, now I need to finish some HW.

Stay tuned for my next post on why I will never date a guy at school!

Ok, I know I have said before that it is not good to way more than once a day or during the week, but I can't help it! I just got on the scale fully clothed and it said I weighed 254. ahahahahahahaha. Anyways, back to your regularly scheduled programing!

Note: even though I just weighed 2 lbs less, I did not change my stats on the side to reflect it!

256. The not so magic number on the scale this morning. SO I gained. It is TOM and I didn't eat too well so I was sort of expecting a gain, but not 4 lbs!!! Oh well. Hopefully next week will compensate for the gain. I didn't let it get me down. I went to the gym and was on the elliptical for an hour. Now I am off to my internship!

Well, I did it. I got off my butt and went on a walk. I walk down Music Row and then decided to keep going to I walked along Belmont Blvd to the 440 and then turned around. All in all I walked for 1 hour and 50 minutes and man was it hot outside. I was however wearing a skimpy tank top so I got some much needed sun! I am trying to even out my messed up tan from way back in May. I didn't get burnt just a little red. I know still not good, but I needed some color. I am a little nervous about the scale tomorrow. Hopefully I will be able to maintain or even lose a pound or two. Ok, I am going to watch MTV True Life: I'm Obese.

I need to get off my butt and go on a walk, but I have NO motivation right now =( Hopefully it will come to me in the next 15 minutes!

So today I got back on track! Yesterday I did pretty well except for dinner at Las Palmas where I had way toooooooo many tortilla chips and the little piece of birthday cake I had. I didn't excercise yesterday either. But today is a new day. I walked down Music Row and then Back up the other side. It took me a little over an hour. I also did some light hand weights in my apartment. I went at the perfect time. About a half hour after I got back, a thunderstorm hit. I even managed to get some sun!

I was just asked to be a bridesmaid in the wedding of a good friend from high school! This will give me even more incentive to lose weight. The wedding might be in March, but it all depends on her school schedule if she gets into PT school. I am sooooo excited for her!

I had a couple of rough days eating wise, but I am ready to get back on track. I had an amazing workout at the gym yesterday. I did my ab stuff and then I did weights for 50 minutes. After that it was treadmill time! Today I ran for a FULL 15 minutes before stopping!!!!!! I did this at a pace of 5.7 mph. I then walked for a couple of minutes and ran for another 5 minutes. Finished up with walking for about 10 minutes. Then on to the elliptical for 35 minutes where I got to read my new Time Magazine with Thomas Jefferson on the Cover. I simply adore Thomas Jefferson! I had every intention of reading the articles, but since I couldn't give it my undivided attention, I will savor it another time.

Since it is a holiday weekend the gym is closed today, tomorrow, and Monday. I am taking today as my off day and I will probably walk around the neighborhood and do some weights.

I made some pink lemonade crystal light last night and while I must say that it was a welcome change, I still like my water better =)

ok, I have been inspecting my body quite a lot the week and one of the main concerns is sagging skin. I never really noticed it before this week, but it appears to me that is is becoming more prevalent. I notice it on my legs below my butt and on my stomach below my belly button. And of course my bat wings. I am really scared about it! I know there is nothing I can do about it right now except to weight train, but all the same it still worries me. Hopefully after a year at goal, my skin will do some snapping in to place and I won't have to worry too much about surgery.

Oh man, I have a feeling tomorrow morning is not going to be pretty. I just ate 3 slices of Digorno Pizza and Ben and Jerry's Oatmeal Ice Cream. I have a feeling since I haven't been eating much fatty foods it will not be pretty. But, I can hope for the best! This morning I was tired again, so I didn't make it to the gym until about 9 AM. When I got there I did my weights for 40 minutes and hit the treadmill for 35 minutes. Only 15 minutes of running. No elliptical today. I will be doing that tomorrow and reading People! =) This evening I also went to the Strength and Toning class that I really like. It is a good mix of aerobics, stretchings, weights, and yoga. The yoga at the end of the class is so calming. I will definitly be going back next week!

On Saturday I am going to the Outback Steakhouse with my roomate before we go to see . I am going to get the Walhala Past with chiken mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. It is 18 points, but I will be taking half of it home. No salad, but I will be eating bread. I can not weight!

Shorts should be banned. They are just not attractive. It doesn't matter what size you are, they just don't look good. I guess that is why I haven't worn a pair of shorts out in almost 4 years.

I am soooooo tired right now! I didn't get out of bed until about 8:45. I then got ready to go to the gym. I did 40 minutes of weights and then 35 minutes on the treadmill. I only ran for 15 minutes, but 15 minutes is better than 0 minutes. I am going to an aerobics an after after I get off work. It is the same class I went to last week. It is the strength and toning class.

My West Palm Beach trip is a week from today!!!!!!!! I am so excited. I will have definitly met my goal to be 250 lbs if I keep it up like I have been. I can't wait to see everybody! I am going with a bunch of guys and a few girls. I doubt the guys will even notice though. I do however need to get a new swim suit. I am going to try an look when I go hom in a few weeks. I am not really looking forward to looking for one because I will be inbetween plus and regluar sizes. Oh well, I guess it could be worse!

So this morning I decided sleep would be a little better than working out. So I only worked out for 35 minutes today. I did my streching and ab routine and then hopped on the treadmill. I pretty much did the same as yesterday, but today at a speed of 5.7 mph!!!! SO that means I ran a mile in 10:31. I think before I increase my speed anymore I will work on increasing my distance.

Also, on the scale, I weighed 252 this morning!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is a whopping 6 lb loss. Now I am excited about this, but at the same time it is sort of scary. I just hope that I can keep up my average of about 2 lbs for week.

I had 2 candy bars yesterday-full size- York Peppermint Patty and The new Triple Chocolate Twix. I didn't even go over my points. They were good and they definitly satisfied the craving I was having at the time.

Ciao, ciao!

I have no clue what has gotten in to me. I RAN again at the gym today at a speed of 5.6 mph! I walked for 2 min, ran a mile in under 11 min, walked for 3 minutes, ran for 4 more minutes, walked for 5, and then walked for 5 more! Man I think I am trying to challenge myself and I really like it! So I spent more than 2 hours at the gym today. I am going to back at 5 for a step class.

I found a glorious breakfast item at the store on Saturday. It is a Lean Pocket breakfast sandwhich. It is Sausage, egg, and cheese. It is only 3 points. It is kind of small, but it definitly satisfied that McDonald's breakfast craving that I occasionaly get! Yeah for an awesome way to spen 3 points!

Man oh man. My stomach is not happy right now. I went out for a very late night meal at the Sunset Grill that put me way over my points and I just do not feel good right now. I had a sonoma salad with apples, toasted almonfs, blue cheese, and a yummy dressing that was point friendly. But I didn't stop there. I got the chocolate bomb cake. ahahah. Not good for my stomach this morning, but boy was it good last night!

I just joined The President's Challenge. I think it will be a good way to keep track of the activity I do. I don't plan on buying the "rewards" though. I joined a group of fellow Weight Watchers. The group ID number is 13462. Check it out, if it interests you sign up!

I went grocery shopping again yesterday afternoon. Lean Cuisines were 40% so I stocked up and so were my frozen veggies! I also bought my La Tortilla Factory Whole Wheat Tortillas that I love. When you have 2 they are one point a piece! I also bought some SnackWells cracked pepper crackers. 5 crackers are 1 point but 10 are 3. So I guess I will just be eating 5 a day when I have them. They are soooooo yummy with Laughing Cow cheese. MMM, MMM, Good!

As far as excersising goes, I am taking the day off =) It is my lazy day today. Tomorrow I plan to go to the gym in the morning and then step class in the evening.

Last night I wore my size 18 NY and Co. Jeans out. I think I am going to weight a little longer before I wear them out again. They aren't uncomfortable or anything, I would just like them to fit a little better.

I am out!

Today ended my 7 straight day of working out. I am looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow! Yesterday I did weights for 30 minutes, the treadmill for 25 minutes which included running a mile at 5.6 mph non-stop!, and 10 min on the elliptical. Today I just did crunches and an hour on the elliptical.

Last not I babysat for one of my professors. I think I made some good food choices like yogurt and cantelope. Hopefully I will lost this week =)

Yesterday when I was coming out of the gym the custodian who sees me leave from the gym pretty much every morning jokingly asked me if I ever get tired of sweating? I thought this was kind of funny because usually I am dripping in sweat. Of course if it was up to me I would no swat at all, but it's not! I just smiled at him and told him it wakes me up. He then said what am I going to do when school starts and I told him I don't have class until mid-morning, I am going to have to wake up somehow.

I need to get ready for the day. I am really craving a nice big salad!

Whoa! I have been an exercising fool this week! Yesterday I worked out not once but twice! I went in the morning and did my routing of weight training and elliptical. But in the afternoon I decided I was going to switch it up and add a aerobics class. Since I couldn't go to the step class on Monday I went to the Strength and toning class. It was a pretty good work out. I was the youngest of the 8 people there for the class. The class included step, hand weights, bands, and pilates to finish it out. It was a welcome change and the ladies were so friendly. I am planning on going back next week, but I don't think I will work out as hard in the morning as I did yesterday.

For dinner yesterday my roommate and I went to Applebees. I got the Ranch Chicken Salad or whatever it is called for 4 points off the WW menu. However, I also had Spinach and artichoke dip. I am pretty confident that I did not go over point. I do feel that the salad was not worth 7.50. It was pretty small and I can get something bigger for cheaper elsewhere or even make my own!

Today I went back to the gym and just did crunches and the elliptical. I was really craving a burger and my roommate and I wanted to try this burger place everyone raves about. Plus, I had points to spare! My cheeseburger and fries were really good while I snarfed them down, but now I don't feel so hot. I think I will cut it in half and save the rest for later next time I eat there.

After being on WW for a while I have learned that nothing is really off limits, it all depends on portion size and frequency as well as a slew of other things. I still eat things that are not considered "diet" foods, but then again I am not on a diet. I am making a lifestyle change. I have learned to listen to my body more and analyze why I eat. It is definitely a journey. A journey that will last a lifetime!

258! That was the magic number on the scale this morning! My lowest weight while on the program. If I keep this up I will meet my goal of 250 by WPB! I think something that has helped me is moving the scale out of my bathroom and under my bed. I am less tempted to weigh myself everyday. I think it is much healthier to weigh only once a week.

I really can't believe how much weight I have lost. 42 lbs is a lot, but I still have 83 more lbs to go. So that makes me about 1/3 of the weigh there! I am so amazed. Sometimes I get mad at myself for all the junk that I ate over the years to get me to 300 lbs. I think to myself that I could be at goal by now if I had just changed earlier. But than I realize that things happen for a reason. I really don't think that a couple of years ago I was ready to make the lifestyle change that is necessary to lose weight.

I love being able to wear clothes that fit (a little tight though) last year and they fit even better this year. I wore a size 22 pair of jean on monday and they were falling off of me. I could put them on without even unzipping them! I would say that I am size 18W and 20 regular. Hopefully, I will be out of plus sizes for good!

I am off to bed. Ciao, Ciao!

Ok, well for a weekend of eating some not so great food choices, I think I did quite well. Friday and Saturday were my only trouble days and I went to the gym on Friday and walked a lot on Saturday. I also went to the gym on Sunday. MMM MMM! P.F. Changs on Saturday was amazing! It was a very nice treat! Sunday I got back on the plan and today I have been doing amazingly well! I went to the gym for 2 hours and did 40 minutes of weights, 20 minutes on the treadmill and an hour on the elliptical. Hmm, not really sure what I was thinking, but it was a great workout. This workout included running! Imagine! Me? Running? Well I did! I ran at 5.5 mph so that was a little less than an 11 minute mile. No walking just running! I don't think I have run that fast since 7th grade. I am thinking that training for some sort of road race might be fun and interesting. At least it changes my workout up a bit. I am also thinking of gitting some workout DVDs so I can do something at my apartment.

I was supposed to go to a step class today, but I had a conflict with one of my jobs. SO, I am planning on going next week and I can't wait. I also tried on my size 18 NY and Company jeans and they fit A LOT bettter then when I bought them. A few more pounds and they should fit just right =)

I have been struggling for a while, but I think things are starting to get better. I have worked out 4 out of 5 days this week! I didn't work out yesterday because I had a bunch of stuff to get done before my friends got here for the weekend. Lunch yesterday was not really on plan. It was mexican and man do I love guacamole and chips! For dinner we went to BB Kings and I had a chicken tenderloin sandwhich and fries. I know, not the best choice. Oh well! I paid for it this morning with a not so good feeling I had when I woke up. However, I accomplised a major NSV: I did not drink any alcohol last night when I went out and I went to 3 bars!!!! This is amazing! Not even one drink! I just had water with lemon and a diet coke! I rock. I haven't decided if I am drinking tonight or not.

I went to this showcase last night for music industry, TV, and Film professionals. Out of all the industry people, there were probably 2 women who were obese, as in heavier than me. I decided that there is no way when I get older tha I want to be the DFCP (The Designated Fat Confrence Participant).

Oh I don't know if I posted this before, But I revised my goal to lose 10 lbs by WPB to bring me to a weight of 250lbs. I think I can do it =)

I am still not through my rough patch. I am still holding steady at 260 lbs. I know if I followed the plan as closely as I did in the beginning the lbs would be melting off, but I am not. I am slipping and I need to work on it. I have revised my goal. I know that being 250 by WPB is attainable. That is my new goal. That would put me at -50 lbs.

Despite the rough spot I am having, I am still excited about my loss. 40 lbs is a lot. I know I definitly do not want to gain it back. I just need to realize that I didn't put the weight on overnight and it is not going to come off over night either.

Here is to a week of wise food choices, a little alcohol, and excersie. =)

So right now I seriously want to eat everything in sight. But I have eaten 30 of my 33 aloted points and no APs. I might have another snack before I go to bed.

On a brighter note, I can see a serious change in my hands and wrists. I can wear a smaller ring size and my fingers fit around my wrist with room to spare =)

I having another good day. I did splurge on peanut butter and crackers today at lunch, but my body really wanted it. Previously I would have finished off the box of crackers and now I am fine with just a couple. I got to the gym at about 7:30 AM this morning and worked out with weights for 40 minutes, ran on the treadmill at 5.3 mph for 5 minutes, and did the elliptical for 1 hour and 5 minutes. I came back to my place and got ready for work. I just got back from work and had a snack of cheese flavored rice cakes and a peach fruit cup. Yum! I am trying to decided what I should fix for dinner. Maybe chicken or pasta or rice? Hmm, I have a lot of options.

This morning was also the first day of summer school classes, but my class only meets once a week, so I won't go to it until tomorrow. However my roomate does have a 7:30 AM class. I told her I would walk over with her to campus since I wanted to go to the gym. She basically got mad at me because I wasn't sleeping in. I was really hurt by this because I am trying to accomplish something and I find that I like to work out in the morning instead of the afternoon or evening whenever I can. It is all good now though, I was just a little hurt earlier today.

In other news I bought a shirt at Old Navy last September for $7.99 and it fit, but it was snug so I never wore it. Today I wore it and it looked hottt! Hell yeah! I can't wait to be in those size 18 jeans =)

I am back on track and loving it! So far the past 3 days have been great. I really thrive when I journal. I was running out of space in my journal and since I hadn't really kept track of what I eight for the month of May, I decided to create my own journal. Nothing fancy, I just photocopied 2 blank pages out of my old journal and made a bunch of copies. Now I decided to make a journal for my countdown to WPB. Right now I am sitting at about 260. I woule LOVE to be in the 230's by then, so that is my goal. Now, I will now be making my a little journal for each mini goal that I have. I have been keeping up at the gym, but I didn't go because I was too tired from a night out of drinking. While I don't mind drinking, in fact I enjoy, it is WAY too many points. That is why I am glad I don't go out too much. Two weeks from now will be a test. Hopefully, I will be able to stick to Jack and Diet Cokes alternating with a plain diet coke.

I just love trying on clothes! I tried on my pair of jeans from NY and Company. They are 18s =) While they fit, I can stand to lose a few more lbs before I wear them out in public.

Have a good evening everybody!

I have been having some eating issues. I keep telling myself I am going to get back on plan and then I do something to throw me way off points. Why? I am not really sure. I am sitting at 263 right now. I know the weight will melt off if I stick to the plan. That is a 3 lb gain from my low of 259 before I went to Memphis in May. I really need to start making better choices. My mini goal is to be 255 by the time a bunch of people come in to town that I met last summer. That gives me 15 days. I know 8 lbs seems like a lot for that time period, but since my body has become used to fattier foods, I think once I get back on the program it will come off easily, plus I will continue with the gym. I think the gym is the only thing that has saved me from gaining even more weight with all the crap that I have eaten during the month of May. Well it is June now and essentially I am trying to start over. Wish me luck! I will need it =)

Eating is never that great when I am at home. It is not that I overeat, it is that I eat all of the foods I don't normally eat. Last night my family went out to celebrate my brother's birthday. My new favorite item at the place was their sald with yogurt dill dressing. Yes, I did say salad!

I got home on Sunday, but not before stopping at the Huntington Mall where I bought some new clothes. One going out shirt a t-shirt and 2 pairs of jeans from New York and Co. The jeans are a size 18 and they fit, but they are a little tight. I should be in them by then end of the summer =)

Yesterday, I went and worked out with my trainer. Since the last time we met (April 8th) I have lost 12 lbs. So that equals out to about 2 lbs a week which is much better than I thought. I guess it all dpends on the big picture, not so much on the weekly happenings. It was a good work out and I learned some new things.

Tonight my brother is having a sleepover with cake a pizza. I think I will just try to have 1 piece of each. I know I can do it =)

My mom and I are planning a trip to the Bahamas in September 2005 for our birthdays =) It should be a lot of fun! We can't go this year, but I think we should be able to make it next year!

I have fallen off the horse BIG time. Eating for the month of may has not been hot at all. Today, is one year to the day of my ultimate goal- to be skinnier for graduation. I am not quite sure what I want that weight to be, but I will set it as I lose more weight. I should have graduated today had I had all the classes I needed, not transfered and not going to Europe, but then I would be a completely different person. I know I have said that I need to get back on plan a couple time this month, but I mean it now. The one year countdown until graduation has begun today! I printed out the guides to jump-start my weight loss by eating 20 points a week. I am hoping this will get me back on track. I am not made at myself, I just need to work a little harder to get back to where I was. I know I can do it =) My major probelm has been eating fattier foods and not counting points. It is all going to change today!!!!!! Wish me well. I am off to work and then the gym =)

Bye, Bye 250's. I am pretty sure I am back up to the 260's this week. I will find out tomorrow. Memphis in May was amazing and I had such a good time, but I can not eat Fried foods for 3 days straight and drink insane amounts of alcohol and not gain. It sucks, but oh well. I will be able to get the lbs off. I wouldn't have changed anything about the weekend. The pronto pups, bbq nachos, funnel cake, and all the other food I consumed was great. Good thing Memphis in may is only once a year =)

What did the scale say this morning when I got on it??????????????????????????????????? 259 Baby! I accomplished my goal. Let's just hope after a weekend of being a puddle I will be able to stay in the 250's! =) I just got back from the gym I did 65 minutes of cardio. Now it is time for a shower, grab some lunch, and then back to class again =)

I had an awesome workout at the gym today. 40 minutes of weights and 65 minutes on the elliptical.

I have been doing very well food wise also today. I made some yummy tuna noodle caserole yesterday and had some of that for lunch today. So far I have had 19 points for the day so that leaves me plenty of space to play around with for dinner.

Through this whole journey I have come to learn a lot about myself. I used to be a very emotional eater. I would eat when I was excited and I would eat when I was stressed. I just ate alllllllll the time. I look back and can't imagine how I once ate as much as I did. I have been able to control this. However, I ocassionally still want those biggie fries and chicken sandwhich from Wendy's. It is a struggle sometimes, but it will all be worth it. I have allready lost 36 lbs. Hopefully more after I weigh tomorrow.

I looked back at some of my previous posts and one of my goals was to be in the 260's for Memphis in May. I have no clue where I got the goal to be in the 250's from. I think being in the 260's is way more realistic for me. It has been a rough month and a half or so. I am excited that I started weight training, but I also haven't been eating as well as I should. My arms are starting to get toned and it is exciting!

Ok, I need to get some HW done. Ciao!

arggh, It has been a tough week. On Tuesday I was still at 264. I am sort of getting frustrated. Even though I really haven't been loosing weight, I have noticed a definite change in my body. SO yeah for that! However, I feel as though I have been eating crap all this week! That is not good. I will get back on plan today! For breakfast I had a mixed fruit cup for 1 point and a Special K Breakfast bar for 2 points brining my total up to 3 points for the day. I have allready had 3 glass of water today too! I will be on my way to gym in about in hour!

This week has also been hard because of the guy I had a crush on. Well, the crush is over, but we are still friends. Over the past couple of weeks I have just realized some stuff about myself and him. Maybe he isn't that perfect person I once thought he was, but that doesn't mean we still can't be friends. I basically realized I am nothing like any of the other girls he hangs out with. Also he yelled at me on Tuesday when I was trying to help him. Long story short he skipped class and went to a soccer game, he should have been there to turn in the HW assignment, he wasn't, prof said that those who weren't there had until 9 PM to turn it in or else they would have to write the paper from hell. A friend and I called him he got mad at me asked me to come get him and then said he would get a ride to campus, but wanted to look at my notebook. I went out of my way to give him my notebook and he fucking yelled at me! I know he was stressed, but I was trying to help him out. He called later that night to apoligize. So basically I have stopped initiating phone conversation. If he calls me I will call him back. So far this week he has called me about 4 times. He wanted to know if I wanted to go to the museum on Friday because students got in free and he remembered from a long time ago that I had wanted to go. I went on Thursday so I told him thanks, but no thanks. Before I probably would have gone again. Not now. A whole bunch of other stuff happened, but I am not going to go into that right now. So this week should be interesting.

Also, I have come to the realization that my weight loss has to be for me and not for anyone else. Sure it is great to recieve complements and they help keep me motivated, but I can not let the be my main motivation. I am doing this for myself. I have achieved everything else I have wanted up till this point except weight loss. I KNOW I can do it!

I will be back on plan this week!

My cramps have been awful today and I am afraid to see what the scale says tomorrow =(

Something I like to do for fun is try on clothes that were once too small and now fit to see how far I have come. Today I fell in love all over again with my DKNY skirt, but this time I had a white cami on with my black flip flops. I liked it sooo much that it is what I will be wearing for the first night of Memphis in May =)

An update! I bought a size 20 pair of pants from the GAP this week! My first pair ever! I debated about jeans, but I just decided to wait until I have lost more weight. I also weighed in at 264 this week. I might make it to the 250s by Memphis in May and I might not. I saw some of the guys that will be there this weekend when I was in Chicago. Only one told me that I looked good. I am not sure if he was being polite or if he actually noticed. The other 2 said nothing, but once again they are guys. So I went to Chicago for the weekend and I was worried about over eating and drinking too much, but none of that really happened. I ate about 1 1/2 meals a day and walked around everywhere! So what drinking I did do I figured it was ok.

Emotionally it was a tough weekend because I was not with my normal group of friends from school. We all got along, but we were also all wuite different. I weighed about almost twice as much as the other 3 girls and they all wore those short little skirts that make me want to barf! Also all they wanted to do was shop at stores like Forever 21 and h&m which don't carry anything in my size. So you can imagine what fun that was for me. Usually I would have split from the group, but I didn't feel comfortable doing that. I just want to go into any store and be able to fit into anything.

Also, they all liked clubs. I AM NOT A CLUB PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I would much rather go to a smoke filled bar and listen to music.

My goal is to stay OP for the weekend!

Ok, I am getting back on plan today. I have sort of fallen off the wagon over the past month. I had my first gain last week of 1 lb. 10 days of eating dinner out did not do me any good. I need to step up my excercise too. I have just realized that I can not fall back into my old eating habits. It has just showed me how much weight watchers really works for me.

NSV: My first Victoria Secret Bra ever!

269, go me. Hopefully I will be in the 250's by Memphis in May!!!

Today has been the first day in 9 days that I have not excersied. I have also not eaten on points the last 3 days either. I am kind of curious to see what the scale will say on Tuesday. I am not really sure how I am going to react if I have a gain. I went out last night to a bar and I looked good! I had on my new pair of size 18 jeans, my new black shirt and my boots so I was like 6'3. It was fun, but I can't do that too often because I could drink soooooo many points. My good friend from Seattle is here for the next week. It should be interesting to see how I do on the plan. Hopefully I will have time to update more this week =)

271, that is what the scale said today. So, that would be a 4 lb loss in the past 2 weeks. I am happy with that. I will take a loss any day over a gain. I am very lucky that I haven't had a gain yet, but I know that will not always be the case. I went to the gym today. I just did 30 minutes on the elliptical and about 10 minutes of lower body weights (so 2 machines) and crunches. Technically today was supposed to be one of my rest days, but I just couldn't stay away. I know this ie pretty bad, but my mom made this candy that is just butter and sugar carmalized with chocolate on it. When I eat it I don't journal it. I have no clue how many points it is. Thank goodness it is almost gone! I just need to tell myself it is not like I haven't had it before or there will be plenty more times to have it again.

Blah! I am just having one of those days. This was my first day back at classes. After I made it to the gym. I did 30 minutes of aerobic excersie on the elliptical and about anhour of weight training. Man I am sore! Different muscles this time so I guess that is a good thing. I have eaten horribly today too! A chicken taco salad without the shell for lunch and then a grilled chicken sandwhich with fries for dinner. argh! I should have just had something at my apartment for dinner. My snacking seems to be out of control too. I am not binging or anything, but it just seems to me that I snack a lot.

I decided not to count last week. I journaled it while I was home on a week journal my mom had left over from the old WW plan. I did not bring my main journal home with me. It wasn't like I ate horribly well at least not too badly, but it was the week after I was sick. I need to get back on plan!!! I know I can do it. I think I just am hitting a slump right now. I am worried about what I will weigh tomorrow too. Just right now my jeans felt not as loose as the used to so that is freaking me out too. I think it is all in my head though. Hopefully. Well the scale will tell me tomorrow.

On a good note, since I have been back at school I have been to the gym for the past 3 days. Go me! I might even squeeze in some time on the elliptical tomorrow. wow, I would have never said that 3 months ago. At dinner tonight I was talking about this hot guy at the gym who I see a lot. I talked to him once when we were with a group of friends at a baseball game but I don't know his name. He is hotttttt!!!! I see him at the gym every Sunday. I need to ask the crush what his name is because I know they know each other. I wonder if that will make the crush jealous???? haha. SO, my friend told me she was impressed that I had kept my resolution this long as was still going to the gym. I politely told her it wasn't a resolution. That's it. It wasn't a resolution. It was a complete lifestyle change. Nothing to be broken here. I know there will be days when I don't want to go or can't but it is not like I will be breaking anything. My whole views on my body have changed. I want to be healthier and fit. I really do like the gym now. I even might be getting a little obsessed, but I won't let it get out of hand.

Another thing, the crush is not graduating in May. So that gives me a full year to get my body in shape before he might be leaving Nashville for good. I am not doing this so he might think I am pretty or something. I am doing it for myself, but I want him to see my progress. My goal is to be 200lbs by December or close to it.

I went back to the trainer yesterday for our third meeting. Hopefully we will be able to squeeze one in tomorrow before I leave. I have amazing leg strength! I guess that is the one part of my body that has some strength. We worked out with weights for a little over an hour. Basically he has helped me gain the confidence I need to go back to school and use the same machines at school. I am pretty lucky that the machines at the gym here are the same ones at school! I did a whole bunch of different excercises, but I am not going to bore you with all the details. He has stressed temporary muscle fatigue. It is good to puch your muscles. If you can only do 3 reps at a certain weight that is ok, do the 3 and lower the weight. Our muscles need to be challenged. If you can do 10 reps easily then that is not doing anything. He also told me numerous times that muscles don't know the difference between 10 or say 5. They just need to be worked! Two of my favorite excercises are crunches when I use my legs as levers to provide resistance on the abs and push ups! What? Did I just say push ups? yep. I use a ball for a modified push up but they are still challenging. Of course I am sore, but that's ok =)

I went shopping with my mom yesterday. At target I got a new pair of work out pants and a polo shirt. I also tried on a pair of 19 jeans. Almost there. I could zip them up, but they could fit better. So we went to Lazurus. I bought a pair of 18 Womens Tommy jeans! We headed to Old Navy. I tried on this pair capris that had a really cute belt in a size 20. They fit too! Of course I can still lose some more and they will fit better, so hopefully by Memphis in May they will fit better! My mom was going to pay full price 32.50 for them because of the progress I had made. That is unheard of, she pays full price for nothing! We get up to the register and they rang up 22.50! Wahoo.

It will be good to get back to school to get back onto my schedule. The past 2 weeks have kind of thrown my weight loss plan for a loop.

I am fat and flexible. Well, at least according to the trainer I have been working with this week. I guess those two things words aren’t supposed to go together. Usually the heavier people get the more sedentary they become. I guess I have always been heavy and that hasn’t stopped me from being active. On teams I have played basketball (8-12 grade), tennis (8-9), volleyball (9), Soccer (12), and I have also skied. So I have tried to remain pretty active no matter what weight I have weighed and I guess in some ways it has paid off in my flexibility.

So I have a personal trainer for this week while I am home on spring break. Don is awesome! He is a lot older then someone I would think I would want to go to, but he knows what he is talking about. He feels that diet can account for upwards of 60% of the total picture of weight loss, 30% weight training, and 10% aerobic exercise. SO, I will be changing my routine up a little bit. Don says I need to eat more protein to build more muscle mass. I plan on increasing my weight training once I get back to school. Probably 45 minutes- hour and do less cardio.

Let me tell you, my body is sore right now, but it is a good sore. I know my muscles have been worked well and I will have another workout on Wednesday morning. I am doing my weight training at the Nautilus and cardio at the Y. After my weight training session I debated about going home, but then somehow I was on my way to the Y! Where is the old Sarah who would have gone straight home???? Gone, hopefully for good.

Food wise, it has been difficult. I have been journaling. But dinners have been awful points wise the past few days. Pizza for dinner tonight, but I really want it so I am not going to deprive myself a piece. I will probably do more cardio tomorrow and then weight training on Wednesday.

ok, a rant. I lost 8 lbs since last Tuesday. I know the majority of this has to do with not eating for almost 3 days because I was sick. I expect I will gain much of it back, but it sure was nice to be in the 260's for a few days. I said something to my roommate (who does not know I am doing WW) about losing 8 lbs in a week and she wanted to know if it was because of the gym. Now it bugs me that I have been going to the gym for over a month and she though I could lose 8 lbs in a week. I am not really sure if I look any different. Of course it is hard for me to tell because I look at myself daily so maybe it is hard for my roommates and friends to tell too because they see me all the time. My clothes are loser, but I can still wear them. Also, the same roommate had no idea what a stretch mark looked like! Must be nice!

I didn't go to the gym on Monday, but I might go today. I definitely want to go tomorrow. Friday will be determined at a later time because I will be leaving for home that day. I am also excited to get home and way myself on the scale at home. I think that one is more accurate. Somehow I feel like my scale at school is lying to me and there is no way I could have lost the amount of wait that I have. Oh well, I will soon find out the truth! Now that my appetite is back I want to eat everything in site!!!!

I am sick =( I haven't eaten since saturday afternoon. I just can't keep anything down. i went to gym Saturday Morning and was on the elliptical for 1 hour, that was before I got really sick. I ate well the whole day too. The next morning I felt awful. I was so hot and it was hard to keep water down. The John Mayer show on Saturday was fun, but I was not expecting to have flu like symptoms the next day. I worked concessions for my club at a concert and wanted to throw up. I had a fever last night. I went to bed sooooo hot. I got up this morning to go talk to my professor to get a test I was supposed to take today moved. So I am now taking it on Wednesday. Ok, I am off to sleep some more.

Today I ate like 40 points. I was hungry tonight! I feel bad about doing it, but I think my body was saying it was hungry. I didn't really eat anything too bad. If I wouldn't have had those 2 little Debbie cakes earlier today, I would be fine. Tomorrow is a new day though! I will be going to the gym right after my 9 o'clock class. Hopefully I will make wiser food choices tomorrow and less snacking.

Ok, Mondays have become my easy days at the gym. I was only there for a half hour. Today was my off day simply because it is so busy and it is usually my most stressful day of the week. So according to the scale this morning I now weigh 275. I am not quite sure this accurate as I think my scale is off a little bit, but one of my roomates thinks it is correct. SO, that puts me in a lower point range! Yippee! The program works. I am pretty happy with my success thus far at the start of my 8th week, I just hope I can keep it up. I have goals planned out to keep me going. I haven't really given them actual numbers yet, I just want to be less than what I am now. By the first of May when I go to Memphis I would like to be in the 260's. For West Palm, I need to set another goal, and also for the Gorge during Labor Day weekend. These goals all revolve around seeing people I haven't seen in almost a year. I want them to be suprised! I think I can do it. The only non-scale goal I have right now is to fit into the skirt I bought at Target by the end of summer-beginning of fall.

Ok, I am off to bed!

I have had a pretty decent day today. I had an awesome lunch which included a 3 point grilled cheese sandwich. I won't use Fat Free cheese, so that is why it is not 2 points. I do however use I Can't Believe It's Not Butter. I can't believe I used to make fun of my mom for using that stuff! I still like my butter every now and then =) I also had some FF pringles and a pickle. I should have added some veggies in there, but oh well. For dinner I splurged and had chicken tenders and fries. I really didn't go over points. Plus I did 1 hour and 20 minutes on the elliptical. I increased my resistance and my calves can feel it!

So the crush called me while I was working out, I called him beack and he was in the library. He said he would call me back later tonight. He did. He wants to work on Homework tomorrow even though it is more of an individual assignment.

Part of the reason for the post below was because I basically spent yesterday evening and part of the afternoon with him and his roomate. They were going out, I told them to give me a call before they left because it would be fun to all go out together and he never called me. I was pissed and I still am sort of pissed. He didn't say anything about it to me tonight. But it is a good sign that he called me right? Yeah, I really don't think it is anything to get mad over. I don't think I will even ask him about it.

Ok, I am off to bed!

The weekends are always hard for me. I have worked out 6 days this week, which I don't think I have ever done. It is almost becoming in obsession which could become a bad thing. I talked to one of my friends on the tennis team today who also gives tennis lessons. I told him I wanted to take lessons this summer. I think he would just charge me the court fee which is really cool!

Somehow I think all my problems will be magically solved if I become thinner, but I know that is not the case. I think the one thing I desire the most is a relationship. I know, I know it will come with time, when I am ready for it, don't rush it, blah, blah,blah, blah, blah. I just want it now damn it!

I splurged and had a huge burger today. I will be lucky if I lose on Tuesday. I feel like I have gone over points multiple days this week. In fact I know I have.

I am just in a crappy mood right now.

I had an awesome work out yesterday! 40 minutes on the elliptical. 1 hour on the treadmill and 15 minutes of free weights! I had Atlanta Bread Company with my roomate. Bread kills me!!!! I didn't go over points, but did I really need those 2 rolls or that blueberry cream cheese muffin? No, no I didn't, but they were damn good!
I am going out to dinner at the crub cafe (on campus place) and I will probably get a grilled chicken sandwhich or a taco salad with no shell. I am looking forward to my workout tomorrow!

So a 1 pound loss is way better than a gain. I thought for sure with all the crap that I had eaten over the past 4 days I was sure to gain, but I will take the 1 lb loss and run with it =)

Yeah, just got back from going out to lunch. Totally was not planning on going out to lunch today, but when the guy I liked asked me to lunch of course I wasn't going to say no. I had a grilled chicken sandwich and a few potato chips, I think I made a wise decision considering what I could have had.

Also, a guy stopped by our table saying that I looked like Picabo Street. hahahahaha. He asked me if I got that a lot. Nope. that was the first time probably the last too. It was good for a laugh though.

Today has been an awesome day points wise! I am right on track and I have been drinking all my water. I did the elliptical for 30 minutes and the treadmill for another 30. I also did some free weights. I wanted to do more, but I was just so tired!

Ok, yesterday I started thinking about some of my favorite foods. At one time I would eat them like I was never going to be able to eat them again. So I ate WAY too much. I thought it would be fun to list them in no particular order:

Tidewater Fettucini St. Tropez
Tidewater Bread
Dick's Deluxe
Dick's French Fries
Red Robin California Chicken Burger
Red Robin Fries
Red Robin BLTA
Tudor's Biscuit World Sausage Biscuit
Atlanta Bread Company Oriental Chicken Salad
Oreos
My mom's homemade toffee
My mom's sugar cookies
Chilli's Chicken Cesar Pita
Chilli's queso dip
World Wrap's Chicken Cesar Wrap
La Spada potatoes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
La Spada chicken!!!!!!!!
La Spada Pasta Salamone!!!!!!
Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie

That is all I can think of right now. I will post more as they come to me. Now the majority of these are resteraunt foods that I love. Just because I haven't listed a lot of home made things doesn't mean I don't enjoy home cooking =)

Ahh, my eating habits have been out of control!!!! The birtday cake and cookie cake need to leave the apartment and not through my mouth! Besides those little splurges I have been doing well. I went to the gym today. I did 25 minutes on the elliptical and 1 hour and 5 minutes on the treadmill. I also did some free weights too! But man am I sore today! I can tell it is going to be a good week. One in which I get back on track! I also know it is going to be stressful, but I can handle it. I have my new skirt as the ultimate goal! That's all for now!

Thursday was quite hectic and I didn't really eat a full meal until dinner at Buca de Beppo where I went way over points. It was so yummy though! I didn't stuff my face, but I did eat a little bit of everything which left my tummy hurting by the end of the night. I also had cookie cake. Hey it was to celebrate my roomate's birthday ;)

On Friday I went to the gym like I do every week and one of my friends was there. I new she did weight watchers, but we had never talked about it. She asked me how much weight I had lost because she could tell I had lost some. I told her about 15 lbs. I then told her I was doing WW but not going to the meetings. She said that every Tuesday her and her roomate have a meeting in their apartment because she goes to the meetings, but her roomate doesn't. She invited me to come! How awesome is that????? Also while we were talking, the girl on the elliptical next to me asked us if we were talking about WW? I told her we were. She said she lost 80 lbs!!!! Oh my gosh I would have never guests by looking at her. I worked on the elliptical for 1 hour and then I did weights with my friend!!!!!!!!!! Yeah, I have started weight training. I am sore today, but I am so happy I started doing this!!!

Yesterday, I tried on a skirt I love and it was way too big!!!! I am using that as a gauge for my weight loss. I went to taget yesterday. I have never bought something that didn't fit in hope of losing weight to fit into it, but I did yesterday. The XL top fits, but the size 16 skirt will take a couple months to get into it. The outfit is gorgeous and I new I had to have it. They had like 4 skirts left and they actually had a 16. So my goal is to be in it by end of the summer or at least close to being able to fit into it. I'll post pictures when I do!

Ok, time for lunch!

I went to the gym for 1 hour and 30 minutes today. I did 30 mintutes on the elliptical and 1 hour on the treadmill. Man did it feel good! So I had a decent lunch. A smart one fajita thing and some baked dorritos. At 5 I had to go to this convo event for school where the first lady of TN spoke. Of course there was food, but I felt I made some wise chocies considering all that I could have had.

Now that I am watching what I eat I also watch what other people eat. I can't believe I ever ate like I once did. I still eat food that isn't the best for me, but I eat it in moderation. There was one lady in particular who kept going back for more deserts. They were good, but not that good.

Even though I had all that I still had some soup when I got back. I am pretty confident I didn't go over my points, but I did write it all down.

About 6 more pounds I will weigh what I weighed when I returned from Europe. Yesterday I worked out at the gym for and hour and a half. 25 minutes on the elliptical and 1 hour 5 minutes on the treadmill. I saw my friend that I made last week too. After, the workout I decided to go get some lunch on campus. They have a pizza, burger, and mexican place. Sometimes I will get the grilled chicken, but usually I get a taco salad without the shell. It is so hard for them to understand that I don't want the shell. The salad with gucamole and sour cream is soooo worth the splurge after a workout. Just a little cheese and a little chicken yum! Of course I saw my crush and I looked like shit. Oh well. I am over it. At least he knows I work out. I made a grilled cheese sandwhich and tomato soup for dinner. I really need to find some lower point bread. I HAVE to use butter, well at least for right now. I also used really cheese so it was a 5 point sandwhich, but it was so yummy! I made a can of soup, but I only ate half of it. I was too full! Night time os definitly hard for me. I just want to snack, snack, snack. So to curb my cravings a little, I had some jello. It's funny. My roomate saw my jello and thought it looked good so she went and bought some too except she didn't get the sugar free kind. The regular has way too many calories.

One of my roomates goes to curves. She wanted me to come with her, but I can't tonight because I have class. It is only $30 a month and it might be a good addition to my cardio workout at school. Also, I want to start weight training. I do not want too much flab!

So I got up early got a shower and ate the other half of my club sandwhich for breakfast. Probably not the best thing, but oh well I wanted it. For lunch had Ravioli and Veggies. I went to the gym around 5 and did 45 minutes on the elliptical while listening to Stroke 9 and Maroon 5. After I went and got dinner with my roomie and one of our friends. Usually I get a taco salad without the shell, but the mexican place was closed so I got 2 pieces of pizza. My stomach was not happy with that decision. So I took some pepto. Now I have been drinking a ton of water and watching the Grammy's. Nothing too exciting now it is time to do the homework I still didn't do today.

Nights like tonight are nights when I wish I had just a little more confidence, be a lot skinner, and have awesome clothes. So 2 of my roomates and I went to a tennis match today because one of my roomate's boyfriends play plus I am good friends with one of the guys on the team. It didn't hurt that my crush was there cheering on his friends too. So my roomates and I go out to dinner and while at dinner we get a phone call from the crush's roomate telling us to come over and drink. So about an hour later we go over there. Only to discover that they are getting ready to go out downtown. We had a drink there and then we decided to leave because we didn't want to go downtown. I sort of wanted to go because the crush was going, but at the same tiem I would feel too self-consious and I feel like I have nothing to where. They asked why we weren't going and they seemed dissapointed we weren't going. Oh well at least I saved a ton of points from not drinking too much tonight.

For dinner I went to O'Charley's with the girls. I got a club sandwhich and only ate half and half my fries. I brought the other half back. Came back and had 1 shout of vodka with diet spite which caused me to go over points. Good thing I decided to stay in because I would have been in the whole big time!

Oh well. Now I can go to bed early and wake up early to do lots of homework!

[59.] What do you think about while you exercise?
Right now it usually revolves around some business article. But when I get bored I think about the weight I have lost allready and how much more I have to go. I also watch the people at the free weights and weight machines because I am going to incorporate that into my workout.

I have been having a pretty good day so far. I had class from 8-9:50 and then I went to the gym. I find that if I bring my workout stuff with me to class it is whole lot easier to go to the gym when I am done with class. I did the elipitcal for 20 minutes and then the treadmill for a little over an hour. I had my iPod. Note to self: John Mayer is not good work out music. Then I started to listen to Maroon 5 and I just started walking faster. Their music is great! I also had my Business week with me and read while on the treadmill. When I was almost done with my workout, the lady next to me asked me if I got dizzy when I read. I told her no and that I couldn't walk on the treadmill if I didn't read. It was just too boring. She agreed. This was her first week at the gym and she said it had been hard for her. I told her I started out at 30 minutes and slowly worked my way up. We chatted a little more and then she told me I was an inspiration to her! Oh my god. I was so shocked that I could inspire anyone. I told her I would see her next week and then I went back to my apartment to shower and grab some food. I had a Smart Ones which I added Veggies too. Ymm. For breakfast I grabbed a Special K bar on the way out. This afternoon I went to the place where I interned last semester and one of the assistants even commented that it looks like I had lost some weight. I might not be able to visually tell myself, but I think others are noticing. How Exciting!!! I am not really sure what I am doing tonight, but I have lots of points for use, so I am not too worried =)

Closing thought: Why do they have a Godiva Chocolate display near the cash register of the Women's Department?

Welcome! Ok, this is my first “official” post to my weight loss blog. I have been meaning to do this for a while, but I just got caught up in life. Yes, I have finally realized I need to lose weight. I am doing it for myself and no one is forcing me to do it. After many failed attempts I think this is the only way it will work. In the words of some acquaintances “You’ve gotta want it.” I don’t think I have ever wanted this more than I do now.

I hope no one is offended by the title of my blog. It is a reference to Tommy Boy and the late great Chris Farley. I figure I should at least have a sense of humor about this situation.

Please leave comments and suggestions! I love comments! I am going to try to use this as a motivational tool. Hopefully I will update almost daily =) You can check out my other blog La Mia Vita

Besides being fat, I am a senior (But I won’t graduate until May 2005) at Belmont University in Nashville, TN majoring in Music Business and Finance. I LOVE music. Dave Matthews Band is my favorite, but I love it all! I want to be a road manager or a tour accountant.

I have always been fat, overweight, or whatever you want to call it. I have used my height as a crutch since I am 6 ft tall. I think the last time I was normal sized was 1st grade. Yeah, I ballooned in second grade after much inspection of pictures and never looked back. In 5th, 6th, and 7th grade I could wear guess jeans, but it was tight fit. By the end of 7th grade I could no longer wear junior’s clothes. I needed “plus sized” clothing. This was during a time when there was absolutely no selection! I think the one thing that saved me during those 3 years was that I did exercise- I rode my bike everywhere. Then my family moved to West Virginia. One of, if not, the fattest states in the nation. I fit in perfectly! Hahaha! I did however seem to gain a few pounds each year and so did my mom. But I tried to deny I had a problem because I was tall and played basketball, tennis, volleyball, and soccer. Who was I kidding? Only myself. I ate crap and it showed. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed high school and had a blast, but I always felt like the fattest girl. I think I felt the best about myself during the first few months of my senior year. Soccer workouts were awesome. My skin was finally clear and I was just having a good time. I left for the University of Washington in September. That summer I had gained even more weight. The concession stand at work was not my friend. I am not really sure that I gained any weight at UW, but I definitely didn’t lose. I spent 2 year at UW and then studied abroad in Europe. I was the fattest girl there, but I didn’t let that bother me. Surprisingly I actually lost a little weight while I was there. But once I got back I gained almost 30 lbs in 2 months! SO I weighed about 290lbs. Still I didn’t have much drive to lose any weight. I talked about it with my mom, but never did anything about it. I started a new school in August of 2003 in TN. I began to gain more weight and get fat rolls like I had never had before. I remember talking to my mom one night telling her I was tired of being fat. Yet I still did not do anything about it! That all changed over Christmas break! My mom had done Weight Watchers and lost almost 50lbs, but she fell off the wagon and gained about 30 lbs back. I decided I was going to do the Points program since my mom had all the literature. I started it on January 6th, 2004 and I weighed 303. I think my heaviest ever. It was definitely a wake up call. I do not want to be fat when I graduate from college in May 2005. I have more than a year to do this and I know I can! Last semester was hectic and so is this one. However I am eating better and exercising 3 times a week! It is going well. I have lost 15lbs so far since January 6th and I feel great! I was afraid of the school gym the first time I went, but now I love. I might be the fattest one there, but oh well. I have got my iPod and my Time or Business Week and I am good to go!

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