I feel like such a failure right now. I am not even going to go into detail of all the food I have eaten in my 36 hour binge, but it has got to stop. I am such an emotional eater and the emotion that I am dealing with right now is stress. What stress might you ask? The stress of writing a paper that is due a week from today that really needs to be done at 10:30 AM on Monday so I can have it proof read at the writing center. I have all the information for said paper, I just need to write the damn thing. I even had the afternoon off today and what do I do? I took a nap. I was doing soooo well up until this point food wise and I feel so out of control it is ridiculous. Also, I slept in a little bit this morning and I only went to the gym for an hour to do the elliptical before work. I usually do weight training for 30 minutes too. I need to shake this stress quick. I guess one good way to do that would be to get the majority of my paper done tonight. If I could even just get 4 more pages tonight that would be amazing.

I also think I need to get out more. Yeah that one came out of left field right now.

A friend invited me to Ashville to watch March Madness during the upcoming weekends. I might go. Friends want to come to Nashville to visit the next 2 weekends, but I am not sure I want them to come. What the hell is wrong with me??? I love it when people visit. Also my long lost friend from Italy is supposed to be moving to Nashville on Monday. There is some major history (not romantic in any way) between us. I will save that for another day. I am still excited about it and I know he will contribute greatly to the above mentioned wanting to go out more. I still think I have some major insecurites about going out and not being good enough or pretty enough for anyone. I should have written all of that in my "other" blog and not this one. Oh well. I am in emotional roller coaster right now.

gAH!

After the run in I had with the 2 bags of chocolate this weekend, I was sure I was going to gain this week. I have no clue how I LOST 2 lbs, but I'll take it! That brings my grand total lost to 101 lbs!!!! Wow! That is a lot. It is 2 years and 2 months to the day that I started this journey. I still have a ways to go and I have a feeling this is going to be the most difficult part. I am 3 lbs away from being under 200 lbs. I need to stay on plan this weekend and make it to the gym.

I forgot to mention that I got 2 pairs of jeans this week from the Gap. Size 16 baby! I am not sure what I was more excited for: the size, or the price- $6.97 each. Ah yeah. And I have decided that Old Navy jeans/pants will in no way ever fit my body! I am not as much as a freak as I thought I was.

I had a run in with not one, but 2 bags of Easter candy yesterday. Not good! I just need to realize that I can't keep that stuff in my apartment. I also went to the best panacke place in Nashville yesterday and had pancakes with rasberry sauce and whip cream AND hash browns. I didn't got to the gym yesterday, but I went today. Tomorrow is a new day.