I am really having a hard time finding the motivation to blog. I am doing so much better then I was earlier this week. On my flight back from Seattle I felt a lot of closure to the relationship even though he texted me while I was there wishing me a happy birthday. However, I was thrown for a loop when I arrived to work on Monday morning and sitting in my pile of mail was a birthday card from him. E-mails were exchanged, but no harsh words were said. It just sucked.

Monday night I worked out with my trainer. Tuesday night I had class. Wedensday night I had a kickball game. Thursday night I had dinner and drinks with a friend and then I went home and watched the office. Last night I went out to dinner and drinks with a group of friends. Tonight I am going to see Josh Rouse with some of those same friends.

At some point this weekend I really need to work work on my paper for class...which will be over in 3 more weeks! Eek!

I need to figure out if my last class will get out early so I can go to the Ryan Adams show as well.

I have been thinking a lot about what I am passionate about and what I really want to be doing with my life and where I want to be living. My mom bought me Eat, Love, Pray in the Seattle Airport when we were there in April. At that point I had gone on 2 dates with Zach. I started reading the book and got busy. I didn't pick it up again until 2 months ago or so. I honestly don't think I could have picked a better time to start reading it again. I went to the gym early after work yesterday to try to catch the author on Oprah. The cable was out so I missed it :( I still need to finish the book though...

Eating is still crappy as in not on any sort of schedule. I have probably been drinking way too much diet coke as well. I have not been eating breakfast and I know I should as well as a few other things. I have gone to the gym everyday this week. I can notice muscle tone returning! This is super exciting because last fall/winter I was in pretty good shape and then I feel as if I let myself go. I weighed myself this morning and I was 195 and my jeans were not tight! I would like aim for a weight of 175ish.

Here's to a relaxing weekend!

It's Hard

Today sucked majorly. I cried a lot. The most I have cried since the weekend of the breakup. But I think there was some definite closure, so I guess that's the good thing to come of all of today's events.

My eating and exercising is so out of whack. I just don't have an appetite even thought I know I should eat. However, I did eat a lot when I was in Seattle, but it wasn't like I truly enjoyed it. I was just going through the motions. Nothing looks good to me. The week can only get better at this point...

A Quarter Life Crisis? No Way!

Celebrating the big 2-5 in Seattle. Told with pictures.

I started the day off in Olympia. My favorite place on earth.



My aunt made me an angel food cake with the best frosting ever! It was such a treat. I think the last time I had this cake for a birthday might have been my 7th birthday...



Yes there are 25 candles on the cake!

Here I am wearing the birthday hat.



My aunt and uncle drove me up to Emerald Downs where I met up with Jewel, her brother and his wife, and one of Jewel's friends.

I saw a rainbow!


Jewel and I with the rainbow!


Jewel's nephew Spencer and I.


And then, just when I thought it couldn't get any better, Jewel and I met Sir Mix A Lot! Baby got back!


Then we headed up to the U-District and ate at Dick's. I have no pictures of Dicks...sad.

Then we went to the Village Inn where I proceeded to drink lots AND lots of beer, and one shot of Jager for good measure.

I had had one beer at this point.


And lots of beers at this point. Please note the cottage cheese eye- One eye open, one eye closed.


I ended the night by throwing up at the onramp to to I-5 right at 45th Ave. Don't worry, I didn't get any on myself or the car.

A full recap to come later this week!

I'm Back!

I'm back and I had an awesome trip!

I will post more, including pictures later tonight!