Slip Up

It was bound to happen. I am bounds to have days where my eating just doesn't go well. Yesterday was one of those. I did pretty well all day until I had a major chocolate craving about 2:30. I quenched this with a 5 point bag of plain M&M's when I realized I had left my chips ahoy candy bites at home :(

I left work around 4 and as soon as I get home I realize my purse is really light. Then I realized it was light because my wallet isn't in there. I had left it in my desk drawer when I bought the M&M's. Grrrrrr. So instead of deal with this situation like a rational human being. I proceed to eat the chips ahoy candy bites, a bowl of sherbet, and about 1/4 of a bag of tostitos and then take a nap. I really should have driven back to work (less than 10 minutes away) and got my wallet and taken a nap.

Dinner with a friend of a friend at Pei Wei was nice. We split the honey seared chicken and lettuce wraps.

At the show I didn't drink. However after the show I ate a lot (I didn't even count how many, but it was a lot) of the christmas nougats. Grrrrrrr.

I slept in this morning and got to the gym a little before 10:30 and I was there until 1. I had a great 2.5 hour workout. I did weights for 45 minutes. The arc trainer for 45 and my favorite, the tread climber, for 45 minute. Hopefully, I was able to reverse some of yesterday's damage.

Tonight I am going to a cookout or (BBQ to those who don't live in the south). Eating should be interesting...I think my plan for tonight is moderation and no drinking.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

It's Almost the Weekend

Tomorrow is Friday. Yeah!!!! Today seemed like such a long day. I ate my leftovers for lunch today. I seriously had to fight off the munchies all day today. I left work around 4 and headed to the gym. I was hoping since we had really bad rain storms it would be less crowded. No dice. They have this awesome new cardio machine called a tread climber. That thing is an AMAZING workout. I was drenched in sweat. It reminds me of when I first discovered the arc trainer. So you really have to pay attention when you get on the thing because it is a little tricky. The gym has signs saying it is not a normal treadmill because so many people have tripped on them. Anyway, this lady gets on the one next to me. It is pretty obvious she has not been on one before. Then she starts RUNNING. Umm, I can hardly keep up with 3.0 MPH. This machine is not meant for running. She slowly realizes it's difficult to run on and slows down. Finally she stops after about 3 minutes and picks up her phone and starts gabbing away while there is sign directly in front of her that says "cell phone free area." So I am thinking to myself jokingly she must not be able to read. When I really know she just thinks she is more important then she actually as, and those rules don't apply to her. So next she gets on a bike in front of me. You start peddling and on the screen scrolls words about pressing enter to start. The chick kept pressing the arrow button for about a minute and couldn't get it to work. And now I am thinking she really can't read. She finally got it to work and then a minute later got off. I think she was really just to pre-occupied with herself.

So I only worked out for 45 minutes today and I am completely ok with that. I think being sick and lack of sleep is starting to catch up to me. I just want to be better.

Dinner tonight consisted of 2 small yukon gold potatoes with a can of rotel on top. I also had to small bowls of sherbet. The second one was a splurge, but it was so good.

Hope you all had a great Thursday. I am off to bed soon!

Today just seemed like a really long day. I worked a little bit in the morning and then I had CPR re-certification. That took about an hour and was over by 11:30. My lunch plans weren't until 1:30, so back to work. It was just draining and I found it really hard to concentrate. Lunch was nice at Pei Wei. I got the Pei Wei Spicy with the stock chicken (boiled, not fried), light on the sauce, and brown rice. I probably have enough for at least 2 more meals.

I stayed at work until 5. I really wanted to get out of there at 4:30, but that just wasn't in the cards today. After work I hit the gym and did about 35 minutes of weights, 50 minutes on the bike, and 50 minutes on the elliptical. I got home and I have felt like doing absolutely nothing. I think the 3 nights of restless sleep, if you could even call it that are catching up with me.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a little less stressful and I will get a good night sleep tonight.

2 Classes down, 18 more to go

or 9 more weeks. I just finished my first week of classes for the semester. And it is not going to be that bad at all. In my strategic management class I have 2 group projects and 4 small individual assignments. In my managing a growing venture class I have to group papers and presentations. The growth class is taught by my favorite professor. I really admire the man's business sense and his teaching style. His classes are always engaging. Even though they usually run over, I am so enthralled by what he is saying I usually don't care. There are 5 people total in the class so it is a lot more like a discussion then an actual lecture. Tonight we were talking about company culture and he knows my current feelings about my job. He called me cynical in my feelings towards my employer. It made me a little sad, but it is not a lie. Kind of fitting he said this when I am currently updating my resume to apply for other jobs. I hope I am not so cynical in other aspects of my life. I know I am towards religion. It's not that I don't believe, it's just I live in the Bible Belt where people claim to be so "godly" and shove it down your throat. I have come to learn that some (not all) of these people don't practice what they preach. I also work at a Christian University and some of the behavior and examples displayed by leadership I just don't agree with.

Ok, I got a little bit off tangent there. Today was another great day. I slept in a little bit and then I had a dentist appointment for my braces. I am getting the clear ones. While some impressions were being taken a commercial came on the TV for Weight Watchers. The lady taking the molds said she was doing WW. Once said molds were out of my mouth I told her I did it as well. She wanted to know how much weight I have lost and I told her. She couldn't believe. Before I left I think the whole office new how much I had lost. At one point in this journey I think I would have been embarrassed or mad that she told everyone, but now I am proud. I have been working this thing for over 4 years and have kept off (for the most part) 100 lbs. That is huge!

I stuck to my planned meals. I walked on the treadmill at lunch for an hour. I didn't buy an unhealthy snack before class. My after class snack was a small Fiestaware custard bowl of rainbow sherbet.

I am learning control! Making healthier choices are becoming easier!

Tomorrow I am going to a late (1:30) lunch with my favorite professor's son. We went to college together and now work on campus together. There is absolutely no romantic link what-so-ever. We usually try to get lunch about once a month or so. So I will probably have 2 snacks before lunch instead of my usual one. I am not sure where we are going, so that makes me a little nervous. I will be going to the Y after work though for some weight training and cardio.

Have a great Wednesday!

On Plan Baby!

I totally rocked today. I am not going to lie. It had the potential to be craptastic because of the lack of sleep, but in the end it turned out great. I made it to the gym during lunch and walked on the treadmill for an hour. I stayed within my points for the day. And I have not had an evening snack which is a regular occurrence after my night classes. Usually a snack that is no where near healthy as well.

I still have the crud though.

Esther the jeans from my NYE pictures are not the GAP essential jeans, they are the GAP boot cut jeans which I love equally as well. You can get a pair when you are in the States in May. They come in long in the store and extra-long online :)

Please welcome to the weight loss blogging community my good friend Nikki at Health Mayhem. She is such a nice person whom I have know through the DMB community. We first met back in 2002 in West Palm Beach. We have stayed in touch through our blogs and get to see each other every blue moon. She was just in Nashville in November and we had dinner together. Welcome Nikki!

Checking In

So dinner last night. I ate an entire Hawaiian pizza at California Pizza Kitchen. I knew I should have only eaten half, but I ate the whole thing. I didn't even think it was that great.

So on the scale this morning I weighed in at 198 even after I ate the whole pizza last night. I know I should be super excited, but considering how I ate the week prior to counting points and how much I exercised this past week, this is pretty typical for me. Now I just need to keep up the momentum and see this thing through.

I have class tonight which means I won't go home for dinner. Technically I could, but I would be rushed and I just don't want to deal with that today. I didn't sleep at all last night and I still feel like poo. This day is not going to be fun at all :(

A Poem from my time in Italy

I spent 2 semesters in Italy during 2002-2003. Everyday Father Bruno would publish a newsletter and usually include some form of art work or prose in it. Here is a poem that I remembered today:

I want to step through the door full of curiosity, wondering:
what is it going to like, that cottage of darkness?

And therfore I look upon everything
as a brotherhood and a sisterhood,
and I look upon time as no more than an idea,
and I consider eternity as another possibility

and I think of each life as a flower, as common
as a field of daisy, and as a singular,

and each name a comfortable music in the mouth,
tending, as all music does, toward silence,

and each body a lion of courage, and something
precious on earth.

When it's over, I want to say: all my life
I was a bride married to amazement
I was a bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.

When it's over, I don't want to wonder
if I have made of my life something particular, and real.
I don't want to find myself sighing and frightened,
or full of argument.

I don't want to end up simply having visited the world.

--Mary Oliver

Lonely

Yesterday and today have been rather lonely days. I haven't done a whole lot of anything since I feel like poo. My eating has just been ok. I didn't go to the gym today or walking. I think I just needed a break.

I am not looking forward to going to work tomorrow at all. Also, tomorrow is the first day of classes. 10 weeks of classes left. That is 20 class meetings total. This is so doable it is scary. I not only see the light at the end of the tunnel, I need to wear my sunglasses it is so bright. What will I do when I am done? I have no clue. Moving to Seattle or Africa are high on the list.

Remember when I talked about my friend's pictures from NYE? And how I didn't even recognize myself? This is the picture. I also realized that my black top is somewhat see through.





I have two poses I do all the time. They are my old standbys. They are ridiculously stupid, but I love them!

I like to call this one the "Oh No!" pose:


The "Peace" or "Victory" Pose.



It was also pointed out to me that I have a freakishly long middle finger.


I am off to dinner! I hope everyone has a great weigh in tomorrow!