I am having a rough day today. I really don't have anything pressing to do nor do I really want to do anything. I got up and was at the gym by about 9:30. I did my ab routine and 30 minutes of weights for the arms. Then I hopped on the treadmill and ran for a combined total of 23 minutes at 5.7 mph. I also walked for the remainder of the time so I was on the treadmill for 40 minutes. After the treadmill I got on the elliptical and was on that for 50 minutes. I came back to my apartment and took a shower. I was supposed to go to a friends pool for the afternoon, but it rained =( Since one of my good friends from WV is coming for a few days I started to clean the living room, kitchen, my bedroom, and my bathroom. Also did some laundry. I had lunch and a few snacks and I have had 15 total points for the whole day. I am not hungry I am jsut bored. Previously I would have eaten when I was bored, but not anymore!

I was talking with my mom last night complaining about not having a boyfriend. Of course she told me I want one so bad and it will happen when I least expect it. She also told me that losing weight isn't a cure all. I am aware of this, but I think part of me hopes that if I lose weight I will be more attractive and get a guy. argh!

I am buying my tour shirt in a size Large. That's right. You read correctly. No more buying an XL, wishing that had a XXL. I am allready wearing som L t-shirts, so I can't wait for it even though I won't buy it until the Gorge.

All day yesterday I did pretty well points wise. I even went out for pizza! I had pesto pizza which is one of my favorites!!!! After pizza I drove around a bit with my friends and then we went to a pool party. Suprisingly it was cool and I had a good time even though I was the "fattest" girl there. I did have my size 18 jeans on though. Soon, well not like in a week, but by them time I am done losing weight I would love to be a size 10 or 12. I am not sure if that will happen. Of course I would love to be a 8, but that doesn't look possible.

Even though we were at a poool party I did not swim. I didn't have my suit and I don't think I would have wanted to wear it because it doesn't fir right anymore. I had fun, I didn't feel awkward and it was great to get out and meet some new people.

Today I went to the gym at 9 and did weights for about 35 minutes and then got on the treadmill and did my routine on that. Last night while I was at the pizza place I thought the server looked familar but I couldn't place him. I realized that he goes the gym pretty much every morning, but he gets there after me. I told my friends that I thought it was funny that I new his workout routine, but I didn't know his name. Well he introduced himself to us, so now I know it. Also, my friend who never goes to the gym started talking to him saying that he looked really familar and asked if he went to Belmont. He said yes and then she said that's where I have seen you, at the gym! hahahaha. he then started talking about how he goes in the mornings because it gets pretty crowded in the evening. Ah well at least I have some more info on the eye candy at the gym!

I caved in. Last night I had a full size Baby Ruth Candy Bar. ahahahahahah. Ok it was good, but after I finished it I thought "man i snarfed that down pretty quick. I didn't even savor it." I can see now how easily it is to pack on the pounds. I still have the wrapper on my desk because I need to calculate the points and journal it, but for some reason I can't find my points calculator.

I got up this morning and went to the gym. I ran again the same as I did last night and then hopped on the elliptical for 45 minutes.

*Note: found caluclator and it was 7 points! Never again!*

Why I Will Not Date Boys Who Go to My School

So I was thinking about this subject yesterday at the gym as I was looking around at the guys in the gym. My feeling is that if they couldn't approach me when I was fatter but they could approach me after I lost some weight I don't think I would want to date them. Hmm, I don't think that made sense. Of course if the crush asked me out that would be a completly different situation since he has known me since the first day of school... So basically I want a boyfriend that doesn't go to my school!

I really am becoming a different person. Last night I had to take the extra credit test for my physics class that could replace my lowest grade if I did better on it. Well I didn't =( It was late and I was stressed so I made myself a PB and J sandwhich. WHOA! That was the first time I had eaten something because I was stressed in ALONG time! And waht did I eat? A sandwhich made with all natural peanutbutter! I even skimmed the oil off the top to make it lower in fat. Now I am not saying what I ate was ok, or that I needed to eat, I have just noticed some changes in my behavior.

I didn't go to bed last night until 1 AM or so. I woke up late and got to the gym around 9:20 AM. I did weights for 50 minutes and then I debated about going back home or doing cardio. I finally decided I would stay and get some cardio in. Now I was deciding between the treadmill and the elliptical. The elliptical won and I stayed on that bad boy for an hour. I went back to my place showered, had some lunch, and then went to work. I took my gym clothes with me because I was just going to stay on campus after work and go to my strength and tone class after. So after work I change into my workout clothes and go up to the room and it is CLOSED because they are redoing the floor!!! So I debated for a second about what to do. I have no clue why I did this, but I went back to the gym and got on the treadmill! I ran for 15 minutes, walked for a couple minutes and then ran for a little more than 6 minutes. I RAN 2 miles this evening. I would have never imagined! Ok, now I need to finish some HW.

Stay tuned for my next post on why I will never date a guy at school!

Ok, I know I have said before that it is not good to way more than once a day or during the week, but I can't help it! I just got on the scale fully clothed and it said I weighed 254. ahahahahahahaha. Anyways, back to your regularly scheduled programing!

Note: even though I just weighed 2 lbs less, I did not change my stats on the side to reflect it!

256. The not so magic number on the scale this morning. SO I gained. It is TOM and I didn't eat too well so I was sort of expecting a gain, but not 4 lbs!!! Oh well. Hopefully next week will compensate for the gain. I didn't let it get me down. I went to the gym and was on the elliptical for an hour. Now I am off to my internship!

Well, I did it. I got off my butt and went on a walk. I walk down Music Row and then decided to keep going to I walked along Belmont Blvd to the 440 and then turned around. All in all I walked for 1 hour and 50 minutes and man was it hot outside. I was however wearing a skimpy tank top so I got some much needed sun! I am trying to even out my messed up tan from way back in May. I didn't get burnt just a little red. I know still not good, but I needed some color. I am a little nervous about the scale tomorrow. Hopefully I will be able to maintain or even lose a pound or two. Ok, I am going to watch MTV True Life: I'm Obese.

I need to get off my butt and go on a walk, but I have NO motivation right now =( Hopefully it will come to me in the next 15 minutes!

So today I got back on track! Yesterday I did pretty well except for dinner at Las Palmas where I had way toooooooo many tortilla chips and the little piece of birthday cake I had. I didn't excercise yesterday either. But today is a new day. I walked down Music Row and then Back up the other side. It took me a little over an hour. I also did some light hand weights in my apartment. I went at the perfect time. About a half hour after I got back, a thunderstorm hit. I even managed to get some sun!