Tuesday, April 27, 2004

What did the scale say this morning when I got on it??????????????????????????????????? 259 Baby! I accomplished my goal. Let's just hope after a weekend of being a puddle I will be able to stay in the 250's! =) I just got back from the gym I did 65 minutes of cardio. Now it is time for a shower, grab some lunch, and then back to class again =)

Monday, April 26, 2004

I had an awesome workout at the gym today. 40 minutes of weights and 65 minutes on the elliptical.

I have been doing very well food wise also today. I made some yummy tuna noodle caserole yesterday and had some of that for lunch today. So far I have had 19 points for the day so that leaves me plenty of space to play around with for dinner.

Through this whole journey I have come to learn a lot about myself. I used to be a very emotional eater. I would eat when I was excited and I would eat when I was stressed. I just ate alllllllll the time. I look back and can't imagine how I once ate as much as I did. I have been able to control this. However, I ocassionally still want those biggie fries and chicken sandwhich from Wendy's. It is a struggle sometimes, but it will all be worth it. I have allready lost 36 lbs. Hopefully more after I weigh tomorrow.

I looked back at some of my previous posts and one of my goals was to be in the 260's for Memphis in May. I have no clue where I got the goal to be in the 250's from. I think being in the 260's is way more realistic for me. It has been a rough month and a half or so. I am excited that I started weight training, but I also haven't been eating as well as I should. My arms are starting to get toned and it is exciting!

Ok, I need to get some HW done. Ciao!

Sunday, April 25, 2004

arggh, It has been a tough week. On Tuesday I was still at 264. I am sort of getting frustrated. Even though I really haven't been loosing weight, I have noticed a definite change in my body. SO yeah for that! However, I feel as though I have been eating crap all this week! That is not good. I will get back on plan today! For breakfast I had a mixed fruit cup for 1 point and a Special K Breakfast bar for 2 points brining my total up to 3 points for the day. I have allready had 3 glass of water today too! I will be on my way to gym in about in hour!

This week has also been hard because of the guy I had a crush on. Well, the crush is over, but we are still friends. Over the past couple of weeks I have just realized some stuff about myself and him. Maybe he isn't that perfect person I once thought he was, but that doesn't mean we still can't be friends. I basically realized I am nothing like any of the other girls he hangs out with. Also he yelled at me on Tuesday when I was trying to help him. Long story short he skipped class and went to a soccer game, he should have been there to turn in the HW assignment, he wasn't, prof said that those who weren't there had until 9 PM to turn it in or else they would have to write the paper from hell. A friend and I called him he got mad at me asked me to come get him and then said he would get a ride to campus, but wanted to look at my notebook. I went out of my way to give him my notebook and he fucking yelled at me! I know he was stressed, but I was trying to help him out. He called later that night to apoligize. So basically I have stopped initiating phone conversation. If he calls me I will call him back. So far this week he has called me about 4 times. He wanted to know if I wanted to go to the museum on Friday because students got in free and he remembered from a long time ago that I had wanted to go. I went on Thursday so I told him thanks, but no thanks. Before I probably would have gone again. Not now. A whole bunch of other stuff happened, but I am not going to go into that right now. So this week should be interesting.

Also, I have come to the realization that my weight loss has to be for me and not for anyone else. Sure it is great to recieve complements and they help keep me motivated, but I can not let the be my main motivation. I am doing this for myself. I have achieved everything else I have wanted up till this point except weight loss. I KNOW I can do it!

I will be back on plan this week!