Eating at home is always hard. There are so many good things that I want to eat that I don't normally get at school. It is hard to believe that I have really changed my lifestyle. Even though I still indulge in some treats, I am always able to bring things back in check.

I am starting off the new year at 238 lbs. This has not been my lowest weight of my journey. That would be 233. I feel like that was eons ago when it was maybe just a month ago. I know I can get back down to that weight. I really wanted to be in the 220's by January 1st. That didn't happen. I am not upset.

Something that would have never happened a year ago was excercise. I told myself I was going to take the day off, but I actually ended up riding my brothers bike. I did the 6 mile bike route in about 40 minutes =)

I have to run to the store.

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I worked out with the trainer yesterday and it was great. I managed to weigh in at 236. So that means I LOST 2 lbs over Christmas! Even though I weighed 2 lbs more than the lowest weight my trainer has seen me at, he said I looked the best he has ever seen! That definitly motivated me. After working out with him for an hour and 15 minutes I did 40 minutes of some intense cardio. I just got back from doing an hour of cardio at the Y. I might be going back with my mom later tonight. I am working out with my trainer tomorrow too!!!!

I went and ordered my bridesmaid dress for my friend's wedding. This summer I was able to fit into a size 16. I tried that on again and it still fits, but it fit a lot better, so even though hopefully I will still continue to lose weight, and it will be too small before the wedding and I will have to have it altered =)

The holidays have been rough eating wise. Let's face it. Since September it has been rough eating wise. I think the gym has been my one saving grace. I was back up to 238 last Tuesday. Let's hope that I can at least stay the same with all the Christmas goodies I have been eating.

I live in a relatively small town. I can not go one place here in Charleston without seeing at least one person I know. Just because I see them doesn't mean I talk to them though. At the movies on Christmas I saw several people I knew and it felt good to be 60 lbs lighter. I have also been trying to work out more while out home and I have seen several people at the gym that I know. I know this is not very nice, (if you were a cheerleader in high shcool I am sorry for what I am about to say) but I have seen several former cheerleaders from my high school who have gained A LOT of weight since graduation. I know this is some sort of messed up vindication or something, but it is comforting to know that everyone or mostly everyone (even formerly skinny cheerleaders) has weight problems, not just me. I had a pretty on points day except for the 4 pieces of See's candy I had. Tomorrow is a new day and I will be working out with my trainer =)