Saturday, February 07, 2004

Nights like tonight are nights when I wish I had just a little more confidence, be a lot skinner, and have awesome clothes. So 2 of my roomates and I went to a tennis match today because one of my roomate's boyfriends play plus I am good friends with one of the guys on the team. It didn't hurt that my crush was there cheering on his friends too. So my roomates and I go out to dinner and while at dinner we get a phone call from the crush's roomate telling us to come over and drink. So about an hour later we go over there. Only to discover that they are getting ready to go out downtown. We had a drink there and then we decided to leave because we didn't want to go downtown. I sort of wanted to go because the crush was going, but at the same tiem I would feel too self-consious and I feel like I have nothing to where. They asked why we weren't going and they seemed dissapointed we weren't going. Oh well at least I saved a ton of points from not drinking too much tonight.

For dinner I went to O'Charley's with the girls. I got a club sandwhich and only ate half and half my fries. I brought the other half back. Came back and had 1 shout of vodka with diet spite which caused me to go over points. Good thing I decided to stay in because I would have been in the whole big time!

Oh well. Now I can go to bed early and wake up early to do lots of homework!

Friday, February 06, 2004

[59.] What do you think about while you exercise?
Right now it usually revolves around some business article. But when I get bored I think about the weight I have lost allready and how much more I have to go. I also watch the people at the free weights and weight machines because I am going to incorporate that into my workout.
I have been having a pretty good day so far. I had class from 8-9:50 and then I went to the gym. I find that if I bring my workout stuff with me to class it is whole lot easier to go to the gym when I am done with class. I did the elipitcal for 20 minutes and then the treadmill for a little over an hour. I had my iPod. Note to self: John Mayer is not good work out music. Then I started to listen to Maroon 5 and I just started walking faster. Their music is great! I also had my Business week with me and read while on the treadmill. When I was almost done with my workout, the lady next to me asked me if I got dizzy when I read. I told her no and that I couldn't walk on the treadmill if I didn't read. It was just too boring. She agreed. This was her first week at the gym and she said it had been hard for her. I told her I started out at 30 minutes and slowly worked my way up. We chatted a little more and then she told me I was an inspiration to her! Oh my god. I was so shocked that I could inspire anyone. I told her I would see her next week and then I went back to my apartment to shower and grab some food. I had a Smart Ones which I added Veggies too. Ymm. For breakfast I grabbed a Special K bar on the way out. This afternoon I went to the place where I interned last semester and one of the assistants even commented that it looks like I had lost some weight. I might not be able to visually tell myself, but I think others are noticing. How Exciting!!! I am not really sure what I am doing tonight, but I have lots of points for use, so I am not too worried =)

Closing thought: Why do they have a Godiva Chocolate display near the cash register of the Women's Department?

Thursday, February 05, 2004

Welcome! Ok, this is my first “official” post to my weight loss blog. I have been meaning to do this for a while, but I just got caught up in life. Yes, I have finally realized I need to lose weight. I am doing it for myself and no one is forcing me to do it. After many failed attempts I think this is the only way it will work. In the words of some acquaintances “You’ve gotta want it.” I don’t think I have ever wanted this more than I do now.

I hope no one is offended by the title of my blog. It is a reference to Tommy Boy and the late great Chris Farley. I figure I should at least have a sense of humor about this situation.

Please leave comments and suggestions! I love comments! I am going to try to use this as a motivational tool. Hopefully I will update almost daily =) You can check out my other blog La Mia Vita

Besides being fat, I am a senior (But I won’t graduate until May 2005) at Belmont University in Nashville, TN majoring in Music Business and Finance. I LOVE music. Dave Matthews Band is my favorite, but I love it all! I want to be a road manager or a tour accountant.

I have always been fat, overweight, or whatever you want to call it. I have used my height as a crutch since I am 6 ft tall. I think the last time I was normal sized was 1st grade. Yeah, I ballooned in second grade after much inspection of pictures and never looked back. In 5th, 6th, and 7th grade I could wear guess jeans, but it was tight fit. By the end of 7th grade I could no longer wear junior’s clothes. I needed “plus sized” clothing. This was during a time when there was absolutely no selection! I think the one thing that saved me during those 3 years was that I did exercise- I rode my bike everywhere. Then my family moved to West Virginia. One of, if not, the fattest states in the nation. I fit in perfectly! Hahaha! I did however seem to gain a few pounds each year and so did my mom. But I tried to deny I had a problem because I was tall and played basketball, tennis, volleyball, and soccer. Who was I kidding? Only myself. I ate crap and it showed. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed high school and had a blast, but I always felt like the fattest girl. I think I felt the best about myself during the first few months of my senior year. Soccer workouts were awesome. My skin was finally clear and I was just having a good time. I left for the University of Washington in September. That summer I had gained even more weight. The concession stand at work was not my friend. I am not really sure that I gained any weight at UW, but I definitely didn’t lose. I spent 2 year at UW and then studied abroad in Europe. I was the fattest girl there, but I didn’t let that bother me. Surprisingly I actually lost a little weight while I was there. But once I got back I gained almost 30 lbs in 2 months! SO I weighed about 290lbs. Still I didn’t have much drive to lose any weight. I talked about it with my mom, but never did anything about it. I started a new school in August of 2003 in TN. I began to gain more weight and get fat rolls like I had never had before. I remember talking to my mom one night telling her I was tired of being fat. Yet I still did not do anything about it! That all changed over Christmas break! My mom had done Weight Watchers and lost almost 50lbs, but she fell off the wagon and gained about 30 lbs back. I decided I was going to do the Points program since my mom had all the literature. I started it on January 6th, 2004 and I weighed 303. I think my heaviest ever. It was definitely a wake up call. I do not want to be fat when I graduate from college in May 2005. I have more than a year to do this and I know I can! Last semester was hectic and so is this one. However I am eating better and exercising 3 times a week! It is going well. I have lost 15lbs so far since January 6th and I feel great! I was afraid of the school gym the first time I went, but now I love. I might be the fattest one there, but oh well. I have got my iPod and my Time or Business Week and I am good to go!

Ok stay tuned for more updates! If you made it this far let me know! Please, pretty please =)