Motivation

So what motivates you to lose weight? I need something, anything right now. I have just lost all self control in terms of eating and lack of exercise. I am trying to think about what has worked in the past and how I can get back there.

I just looked at pictures from the past 8 years and I am struggling with a wave of emotions. I am proud of how far I have come, but disappointed with how I have back slid over the past few months. I need to be selfish and focus on myself. And dessert is no longer a 4th meal. When did I think it was perfectly acceptable to eat dessert after almost every meal and as a late night snack?

To end on a good note, I made it to the gym tonight. 45 minutes of weights. It's a start right?

Maybe it's the Weather?

Maybe it's the weather? At least that's what I keep telling myself. I am having a tough week and it's only Tuesday. I am having difficulty eating well and exercising. I am going to the gym for at least an hour tonight even if all I do is cardio. I mean my clothes aren't fitting right. That should be motivation enough to put the cookie(s) down. I am starting to feel like a giant blob and I don't like it.

I can't find my planner and it is stressing me out. I had it on Thursday before I left for LA. I didn't take it with me and I couldn't find it last night in my room. Oh, and I have been dealing with computer crap for the past day. Apple has some of the worst hold music. I think I finally got it squared away.

Happy Tuesday?

Another Quickie...

So on Wednesday night my apartment was robbed. Thank God my roommate and I were not home. Things were stolen, but everyone is ok. There were some many things that usually happen on Wednesdays that didn't and it really make me think someone was looking out for me.

I still went to LA on Thursday after work. I got about about 3 hours ago and now I am headed out to see Matisyahu. Should be interesting. I don't think I know any of his stuff except for King Without a Crown.

Tomorrow will be busy of course. I need to buy a new laptop and digital camera...

LA was fabulous. I am so lucky that I have such amazing friends. I will update more about the trip this week.