I Can Do This

I got up early again and made it to the gym! There was no way I was going to make it to the gym early Tuesday monring, so I decided to go in the evening. Now usually when I go to the gym, I am not there to make friends and I don't chat people up. I stick to myself for the most part and I HATE working out with friends. Even though I can recognize people that work out at the same time as me. So anway, in the mornings when I was going pretty regularly there was a guy who also worked out with weights in the morning. We're talking 5 AM here folks. So I am strolling into the gym on Tuesday afternoon and he is at the gym. I see him and he smiles at me. I pick my hand up to wave at him and then I realize I don't really know this guy and this goes against my making friends at the gym. So I just say hi and he asks me where I have been. It was at this point I wanted to crawl into a hole because A. I feel like everyone can tell I have gained weight and loss muscle mass and B. He noticed I was gone. I told him I was going to try to start coming back in the mornings. He said something about me being missed and that he would see me tomorrow. He was there that morning and waived and said hello. He was also there today. However I beat him to the gym. So once I got over the initial embarassment, it felt sort of nice to be missed.

I'll be there tomorrow morning as well. I have kickball tonight too!

I just wanted to share a picture from my trip. That is my couisin's daughter with me.

Today is the Day

Dave Matthews has a shirt with "Today is the Day" printed across it. If I could find one, I would by one. Today really is the day. 2007 was supposed to be the year of me. While I have had quite a few good times, I have let my weight loss and excercise efforts fall to the floor. I am going to get back on track starting today. I know I have said this numerous times over the past few months, but there is just something about today. Today really is the day.

I knew I would not be able to go to the gym this morning, but I have my gear for after work and it is on. I prepared my lunch and breakfast. I past up donoughts in my morning meeting. However, I did not eat the lunch I brought. The resteraunt of choice was Mexican. I started to think there was no way in hell I was going, but I am going to face challenges like this all the time. Last week I would have said fuck it and eaten all the chips I wanted telling myself I would start back up tomorrow. Not today. I ate no chips as two baskets sat in front of me. I ordered a chicken taco salad, no shell, and a side of guac since it didn't come with any. I ended up having one chip though. Next time I will ask for no cheese sauce on the chicken. I didn't know it was going to be on the salad. I am not beating myself up over eating lunch out. I feel I made the best decision given my options and that is all I can do.

To my readers (if I have any left) thank you for sticking it out! You all are awesome and provide such great support!