So the past 2 days have been just plain awful. It all started with going out to lunch yesterday at J. Alexander's. oh. my. god. I have never been there before. I know it is a chain, but the atmosphere and food was amazing. Mark Willis was there while we were eating lunch and the hostess said that Keith and Nicole were there over the weekend. Yes, what other Keith and Nicole would I be talking about =) So I wish this lunch was on the company card, but oh well. I got the most glorious cobb salad. I know not the best choice, but I did not use very much dressing at all. I used the dip your fork in your dressing technique. I only ate about 1/4 of my salad because I had 2 huge onion rings before the salad. I also had 2 pieces of some of the most glorious corn bread with cheese and jalepeno peppers. I also passed on ordering desert while all of my co-workers ordered desert. I did have 3 bites of carrot cake though. For dinner I had the rest of my salad. I should have tried to eat something better, but at least I am no longer eating all of a meal that I used to eat in one sitting.

Yesterday 2 people swear the recognized they had seen me before. The waitress asked me if I came there often and at the meeting one of the guys thought he remembered me from a previous event. Hmm, maybe I have a twin out there. I also realized that I work in a pretty superficial business. I honestly don't think I would have the strength to be an artist or an actor being under the public eye and scrutiny. I am not even in the public eye, yet I feel the need to lose weight so that people won't look poorly on me and take me seriously.

Bad food choice continued with lunch. I ventured to the caf which I said I would never go back to. I didn't eat that badly, but I could have done better.

Dinner was also not the best. It was Mexican. I basically ate a bunch of chips. When my meal came I had eaten so many chips that I wasn't really hungry. I had a few bites of beans and chicken and then I got a to go box.

I am not getting inspiration from the biggest loser. I really want the blue team to win!

Another 2lbs down. I am at my lowest weight of 207 which I was at about a month ago. I am convinced that in order for me to really lose the weight I have to lose each pound about 2 or 3 times. Hopefully with this strech of my weightloss journey that won't be the case.

I feel really bad. I was just mean to the cleaning lady and then she complimented me. gah. I sort of had to cut her off because lazy co-worker was not here and that is really who she needed to talk to. If I didn't she would have bables on and on about things I don't care or know about. Then turns around as she is leaving and asks if I have been losing weight because I looked good. gah. Oh well. I need to be nicer to people. I am in bitch mode right now. Not good. I have a big ass meeting with people from NY, LA, and Nashville and I don't want to go at all. I just want to go home and go back to bed. I don't want to be fake this morning either, but I am going to have to suck it up and put a smile on.

I saw the worst infomercial last night. It was for a product called the Velform Saunabelt. This has to be the most ridiculous product ever. Just in case you haven't seen this infomerical this thing is supposed to help you sweat the pounds off. You can target a specific area like abs, thighs , butt, etc. If all I had to do was wear a sauna belt to lose weight I wouldn't have a weight problem.

Tomorrow is the weigh in day. I had some problems early in the week, but hopefully I will show some sort of loss tomorrow.