I am really having a hard time finding the motivation to blog. I am doing so much better then I was earlier this week. On my flight back from Seattle I felt a lot of closure to the relationship even though he texted me while I was there wishing me a happy birthday. However, I was thrown for a loop when I arrived to work on Monday morning and sitting in my pile of mail was a birthday card from him. E-mails were exchanged, but no harsh words were said. It just sucked.

Monday night I worked out with my trainer. Tuesday night I had class. Wedensday night I had a kickball game. Thursday night I had dinner and drinks with a friend and then I went home and watched the office. Last night I went out to dinner and drinks with a group of friends. Tonight I am going to see Josh Rouse with some of those same friends.

At some point this weekend I really need to work work on my paper for class...which will be over in 3 more weeks! Eek!

I need to figure out if my last class will get out early so I can go to the Ryan Adams show as well.

I have been thinking a lot about what I am passionate about and what I really want to be doing with my life and where I want to be living. My mom bought me Eat, Love, Pray in the Seattle Airport when we were there in April. At that point I had gone on 2 dates with Zach. I started reading the book and got busy. I didn't pick it up again until 2 months ago or so. I honestly don't think I could have picked a better time to start reading it again. I went to the gym early after work yesterday to try to catch the author on Oprah. The cable was out so I missed it :( I still need to finish the book though...

Eating is still crappy as in not on any sort of schedule. I have probably been drinking way too much diet coke as well. I have not been eating breakfast and I know I should as well as a few other things. I have gone to the gym everyday this week. I can notice muscle tone returning! This is super exciting because last fall/winter I was in pretty good shape and then I feel as if I let myself go. I weighed myself this morning and I was 195 and my jeans were not tight! I would like aim for a weight of 175ish.

Here's to a relaxing weekend!