Sunday, August 08, 2004

I totally binged tonight on tortilla chips and guacamole. Man do I not feel not so hot right now. Considering I only ate that and a nutra-grain bar this morning, I am not beating myself up over it. Tomorrow is a new day =) My next goal is to be 232 by the time I go home in October to work out with my trainer.

This week has been a hard one for me emotionally. When I look in the mirror I still see the old (as in "fat") Sarah. Now, I know I am no where near skinny, but I have lost a considerable amount of weight. One night in West Palm Beach someone had taken some digital pictures, I remember looking at them and so surprised at how I looked in them. I couldn't believe it was me. I wonder if other people do that. At times I feel like I still look the same as I did a year ago. On the other hand, it is hard when people notice a difference in my weight. Usually it is the girls who will say something. Guys never say anything, but I wonder if they notice? Who knows. I guess the whole issue of always seeing myself as fat is something I will be dealing with for a long time.

On tap for tomorrow: I am going to the gym and then interning. No binging! =)

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