An update! I bought a size 20 pair of pants from the GAP this week! My first pair ever! I debated about jeans, but I just decided to wait until I have lost more weight. I also weighed in at 264 this week. I might make it to the 250s by Memphis in May and I might not. I saw some of the guys that will be there this weekend when I was in Chicago. Only one told me that I looked good. I am not sure if he was being polite or if he actually noticed. The other 2 said nothing, but once again they are guys. So I went to Chicago for the weekend and I was worried about over eating and drinking too much, but none of that really happened. I ate about 1 1/2 meals a day and walked around everywhere! So what drinking I did do I figured it was ok.

Emotionally it was a tough weekend because I was not with my normal group of friends from school. We all got along, but we were also all wuite different. I weighed about almost twice as much as the other 3 girls and they all wore those short little skirts that make me want to barf! Also all they wanted to do was shop at stores like Forever 21 and h&m which don't carry anything in my size. So you can imagine what fun that was for me. Usually I would have split from the group, but I didn't feel comfortable doing that. I just want to go into any store and be able to fit into anything.

Also, they all liked clubs. I AM NOT A CLUB PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I would much rather go to a smoke filled bar and listen to music.

My goal is to stay OP for the weekend!