A Slip Up

I knew it was bound to happen I just didn't know when. I had been doing SO well for the past 4 weeks. Yesterday was not one of my better days. I did not eat well at all and I did not go to the gym. I binged on 100 calorie packs before I went to bed too. I wrote it all down in my paper journal and I am trying my hardest not to beat myself up about. These things happen. The 13 lbs I have lost in the last 4 weeks are not going to come rushing back because of one slip up. They will come rushing back with repeated and frequent slip ups. If this occurs, this is when I need to be concerned. My more prominent hip bones that I can feel aren't suddenly going to hide under a layer of fat after one late night snack attack. Key word one. I am aware of what happened. I need to accept it and move on. Today is a new day!

I was at the gym a little after 9 and did 20 minutes of weights, 50 minutes on the arc trainer, and 62 minutes on the treadclimber. For breakfast/lunch I had oatmeal with crasains. I will be drinking lost of water today and eating a sensible dinner. I also need to work on research for a paper that I have due on Monday.

I am going to the Iroquois Steeplechase in May here in Nashville and I am SO excited. I have told 3 friend that I am excited about going and they all seem shocked that I would be interested in such an event. I am definitely not a Nashville Socialite, but I do like to have a good time. Who wouldn't want to dress up and buy a big hat and drink and eat with good friends???? It is the day after I graduate and it is going to be awesome! I found my dress at Anthropologie last Sunday, I just didn't know it then. I couldn't justify spending $178 on a dress without somewhere to wear it. I now have a place to wear it. I am in love! I just need to make sure it fits right and actually purchase it ;) I also will need to find a nice big white hat with blue ribbon.

Have a great weekend!

Things I am longing for

Sometimes I am a little impatient. I do realize that I will in fact get most of these things. I however want, or am longing for, them now.

-A nice big kitchen stocked with kitchen utensils to my heart's desire
-A good set of knives
-A fully stocked spice cabinet
-A place of my own
-A dog
-Every single specialty cake mold at Williams Sonoma

I'll keep you updated as I am sure the list will increase.

This morning I had a lemon poppy seed muffin that I had been wanting for a while. While I enjoyed it, I soon realized that it wasn't as great as I had hoped it would be and I no longer had any desire for one.

Listening to My Body

I have been trying really hard recently to be more aware of my body and how it reacts to certain things and how I feel. When I eat better and normal size portions I get full faster, usually before I have completed the entire meal. I am gradually working on not feeling like I have to clean my plate. I also have been trying really hard to figure out if I am hungry or just bored or some other emotion before I snack. I think this has helped immensely. This week I have been going to the gym, but I just have not been feeling it as much. I have been working out, but just not as long as usual. Last night I was in bed at 9 and slept in until 7:30. Listening to my body is a novel concept and I am giving it a go.

Today was an interesting day. I have been asked to go out to lunch with co-workers that past 3 days and I have declined. I have been doing really well with bringing my lunch and the places they pick aren't the friendliest in terms of food. Why buy a salad out when I made my own salad?

Also today was my mid-year review. Of course I did wonderfully. However my boss has noticed a change and I am not my normal chipper self. Well duh, my job has sucked the last couple months. I just find myself more and more frustrated. The prospects of graduation have had my mind filled with the ideas of moving and finding a new job. He asked me what my intentions were for my position which I don't think is a fair question. I of course lied, but there is a possibility of a new position opening up and I told him I was interested in it. He seemed very pleased. I have no clue what is going to happen and I sure know that it is none of his damn business either.

Tomorrow is Friday. Yeah. I need the weekend. I needed it yesterday.

I have a new boyfriend...

and his name is Gym. Seriously he is awesome :) He's there for me whenever I need him. He doesn't talk back. He supports me and pushes me. It's a beautiful thing.

I was joking around with a friend today and I told her who my new boyfriend was and we both had a good laugh. I have pretty much decided I am not going to look for a boyfriend this year. I am most likely moving by the end of the year and who wants to deal with a long distance relationship? Plus, I am doing a pretty good job of staying social and busy.

So last night the person I had drinks with was the ex. Great conversation for 2 hours or so catching up and sharing some laughs. I am amazed that we have maintained a friendship. I am amazed at how much I feel I have matured in the past few months. I am amazed how I no longer have strong feelings for him other then feelings of friendship.

My interview went great this morning!

Eating was wonderful as well. I passed on Chili's for lunch and ate the lunch I brought. I just couldn't justify spending the money when I have plenty of food I need to eat and taking a 1.5+ hour lunch.

I headed to the gym after work and it was SUPER crowded. I really wish people would stop going, so I can have my old Y back. Weight 25 minutes, treadmill intervals on random-30 minutes, treadclimber 60 minutes. I would have liked to do more cardio, but there was just no way after the treadclimber that was happening.

Tomorrow should be a relatively easy day at work, besides the mid-year review. Hopefully I can get to bed early tonight!