But this week I have made a conscious effort to make some changes. I went to the gym for a second time in a row today. I went to a new yoga class that I really enjoyed and I did the arc trainer for 60 minutes. Even though I felt good and better about myself while I was doing these activities, it was still hard. I would catch glimpses of myself in the mirrored classroom and instantly notice my stomach rolls. Or when we would hold our arms out I would notice the flags on my arms and wonder if anyone else sees them or is it just me? When I was on the arc trainer I noticed my pants didn't quite fit how I like them too. This was all a little frustrating and saddening. Frustrating because I know what kind of work I am going to have to do to get back to where I want to be and saddening because I let it all happen. Were those Peanut M&M's really worth it? How about that Sweet Ce Ce's Fro Yo? And what about all of the other crap I ate? No it wasn't really worth it, but what is done is done. I can only change from this point forward.
Despite all of these upsetting realizations, I also knew I needed to tell myself I have come a long way. And sometimes pictures are the best way to show ourselves just how far we have come. I also know what helped me to lose so much of the weight. Tracking Weight Watchers points and lots and lots of cardio and weights.
August 6, 2003
November 13, 2010
Both pictures are taken with a good DMB friend of mine. I picked them because it's a pretty good comparison of how drastically my weight changed, especially next to him.
There is no way I would want to be where I was in 2003 ever again. That summer and following semester are where I hit my all time highest weight. I look back at the pictures from that time and I can't really believe it is me.
I need to learn to not be so hard on myself. In the end, a few pounds in the grand scheme of 100+ lbs weight loss really isn't that big of a deal.
I am thankful that I know what I need to do, even if it will take me a while to get there.
6 comments:
BECKER!!! I do love that guy!!! :) And you've come a long way. You look fabulous!
You are doing all right. :)
That's right girl, don't forget what an amazing thing you have accomplished!!! It's great that you want to refocus on healthy habits... but please do not beat yourself up!!
Remember the first and the second time you came to Holland? What you have done, is AMAZING. A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. Say it with me now :)
Today is not a holiday for me, but I'm planning to lose some weight before new years too. I found a pool nearby, now I just need a suit. I HATE shopping for swimsuits.
I am so excited to have found your blog!
I've just decided to lose weight and I'm 5'10". I think us taller girls carry our weight much differently and it really takes a lot before you realize I'm not just big because I'm tall, I'm big because I'm fat. *Sigh*
Thank you for sharing your story here!
The past week has been great. Getting back into the gym was just what I needed to get back on track!
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