I am not giving up

Man it seems like I have been fighting a losing battle since September to lose any weight. I so focused on getting back to 187. Why 187? It was my lowest recorded weight. Right now I am under 200, somewhere I never thought I would be. It is a little frustrating, but I am still pushing forward. No gym for me this morning, but I will be going tomorrow and Sunday.

At lunch I was successful and ordered what I had planned on and it was great. However, on my way home I wanted to go to the Cheesecake Factory or anywhere besides home for dinner SO bad. I think it was because I was tired and I just didn't want to make anything. I ended up with a spinach salad with blue cheese, crasains, avocado, tomato, grapes, and walnuts. Yes I know that not everything on that salad is considered "healthy", but in small portions I can deal.

Oh and my roommate asked where all the brownies went. I told her I ate them all. That was hard to admit to. I could have totally lied and said I took them to work. She just laughed and reminded me of the time she ate a whole carrot cake not too long ago. Please note the brownies were made in a 8 inch pan, but had the pan been bigger I probably would have eaten those too.

I really need to figure some things out...

Let's Try This Again

2 day of all out eating nothing but junk. Yep, that would be my Tuesday and Wednesday. I ate cookies, brownies, chips, candy, burger and fries. Oh and ice cream. I think that pretty much covers the major foods I consumed. Oh and I had some of my favorite easter candy ever. They are these Russel Stovers Coconut nests. mmmmm.

Ok, well enough of that. I went to the gym Monday and Today. Didn't make it Tuesday and Wednesday. Have no fear. I didn't consume all junk. I did eat some fruit, oatmeal, and skim milk.

I am back at it again today (in a good way). I made it to the gym and I already know what I will be having for lunch today with my friends. Oh yes and dodgeball tonight!

Yum!

It is my opinion that there is no better breakfast then one that involves chocolate. Remember that brownie type dessert I made? Well I had a piece, er two, for breakfast this morning with a nice big glass of skim milk.

Oh and I came to the realization today that, while I technically may not be losing weight on the scale I have been doing a few things to make myself feel better. One of which is actualy putting effort into what I wear each day to work. I am actually putting outfits together and wearing jewelry. I still need to work on the makeup thing though

A Well Planned Week (sort of)

As I started to plan for my week last Sunday, I knew that I wouldn't be able to make it to the gym every day. I did go to the gym on Sunday right after I got back from ATL. I stayed up studying from my finance mid term Sunday night, so no Super Bowl for me. I didn't go to the gym Monday morning. Monday, I went to Huntsville to see John Mayer, so I ate out for dinner. I ended up with a turkey sub (plain) with baked BBQ lays. The place we stopped wasn't my first choice, but we were short on time. No gym Tuesday morning because I didn't get to bed until about 1 AM. Tuesday I went out for lunch. Now I could have chose the salad w/ dressing on the side, but I went for the HUGE quesadilla. I should have just eaten half, but I ate the whole damn thing. I made it back to the gym Wed-Friday. I did go to Logan's on Thursday for dinner and I had 2.5 rolls and peanuts. I am ok with it. They were yum!

This weekend I went to the gym on Saturday and Sunday. I went out Friday night with some friends and had a salad and 2 beers. I probably could have done without the beer though. Saturday I went out to a late lunch to this great french restaurant and had an omelet with spinach, mushroom, and cheese, split a salad, and this glorious bread basket with 5 different spreads including honey, butter, peanut butter, raspberry jam, and nutella. I am drooling just thinking about it. I ended up hanging out with my friend all afternoon and she had people over to her house for kebabs. I ended up making them all while she cleaned up =) They were yummy! Later we went to a concert where I had another beer. Like the night before I shouldn't have had it.

Sunday, I got up and was at the gym by about 9 AM. After, I went to the grocery store for my weekly shopping trip. Once I got home I made some yummy egg "muffins" with lots of veggies and turkey sausage. I ate 2 for lunch and then put the rest in plastic baggies and in the freezer for later consumption. I also made a brownie sort of dish from a recipe I found in my Rachel Ray magazine. So not diet friendly, but so good with some vanilla ice cream. For dinner I splurged and had Pei Wei. But I did not eat it all! I ate half the salad, the other half is for my lunch today. I only had a little bit of my pad thai so I have plenty of leftovers.

Even though my options over the weekend weren't the healthiest, I am still very pleased with my portion control and that I made it to the gym.