Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I Wish the Best For Me

So first, today is a pretty momentous occasion. I am super stoked that I will be able to watch it live on TV since my department is helping to put on a campus viewing party.

Second, as someone who has struggled with their weight for most of their adult life, I have found that I have a hard time with the fact that I deserve the best. While I wish the best for everyone I know, I have a hard time applying it to my own life. I am not really sure how to change this. I do realize that I have had some great things and opportunities presented to me. But, I also feel like sometimes I am just not deserving enough. It is my one wish that one day I will be happy with who I am as a person, both inside and out.

So on this day I not only wish the best for my country as we usher in a new President, but I wish the best for me.


anna said...

is it that you don't think you deserve the best because inside you feel that you are still overweight? or is it that you struggle with your weight continually because you just don't feel you deserve to be thin?

i wonder this about myself. even when i am at my thinnest and at a very "normal" weight i still feel that i am just a fat girl inside. i see thin people and think i'm NOT thin.

something to think about...?

Amanda said...

i feel this way a lot lately, especially as i am looking for a job.

why would these people hire me? why am i more qualified than someone else who will apply? what have i done to earn (deserve) this opportunity?

vicious cycle.

i think you are quite amazing!

Sarah said...

Oh Amanda, thank you for the comment. I know you are quite amazing and well qualified and will find the perfect job soon enough. Hang in there! You deserve the best too!

countryjacket said...

I loved this post...you are an awesome person (at least from what I can tell by your blog) and deserve everything you want out of life.

And thanks for getting the information on places to stay in Gatlinburg...it will be a huge help!

Ben said...

Good music is the key.

X.I.R said...

Hi Sarah! I just stumbled onto your blog and realized we both have a lot in common. I live in TN too, have a weight loss blog, quote people (Yoda to be exact, but love John Mayer), and my motivation is also skinny jeans (which I blogged about a few weeks ago). Anyway, just wanted to let you know I enjoyed your blog and to wish you luck on your weight loss journey.