I am sorry for the lack of updates. I posted this on my other blog and it should be posted here as well:

I don't think I could have ever been prepared for what happens after you lose the weight and the attention that comes with losing the weight. ( I just had a thought. Maybe it's not the weight loss that is bringing attention, but an increase in self-confidence which is due to the weight loss? gah)

I have spent the past month thinking about a stupid boy. Fleeting thoughts here and there and it makes me mad that I can stop them. In retrospect, I think it was good that it happened, I just need to move on.

A little background info for you all: I went to WPB pretty much on a spur of the moment decision. As I am walking to my seat on N1 I see an old DMB acquaintance. (I am calling him an acquaintance because I never talked to him outside of seeing him at shows. I don't think I had seen him in about 2 years.) We say hello, small talk for about a minute and then I am on my way to my seat. He came over during the encore break to talk to me and to catch up with A. He touched my back (or the hot spot as my friends call it) and said something about his plans for after the show. At this point I have no clue what is going on and I just tell him I will come talk to him after the show because he needed to go back to his seat. I got his cell phone number and he got mine. We send a few texts that night. All the time I am wondering what the hell is going on? Why is this guy who I have always sort of admired from afar paying attention to me of all people? We meet up before the show N2 for a drink, he has to go to his seat and asks me where I am sitting. I pull out my ticket and tell him where I am in the upper pavilion. He says he will try to come up there. I am thinking, he probably won't. He finds me. And this is only the second show in my entire life I have spent on the lawn...we had a fun night. I am trying really hard to just think of it as part of a fun night of an amazing weekend, but it is so hard.

I think I needed this experience so I know I can get the guy I want. I haven't heard from him since the day after the show. He probably has forgotten me and is busy with his life. I need to move on, it was a fun night. And I am sure I have plenty more fun nights to live.

I am have just been so busy over the past 2 months or so. Weightloss has sort of taking a back burner and I am not really happy about it. I got down to 187. I was back up to the low 190's last time I checked.

I joined a WW at work program. It starts on Wednesday. I think it will give me that push I need to use the last few pounds. I am trying to find the weight that I will be able to maintain.

Thank you to all those who still read. I really appreciate it.