241 baby! Now if I can only manage to lose some weight at the Gorge! =) 6 days in the Pacific Northwest. Mmm Mmm Good!

Emotionally yesterday was a weird day. I planned to go out to a bar with one of my friends so I watched what I ate to have enough points to drink at night. However, I don't think I ate enough and I no longer know my tolerance. Next time I am going to drink an alcoholic drink and then a pop and just alternate the two. About 2 hours before I almost called my friend and told her I wasn't going, but then I decided I needed to go. I am glad I went! Some of my friends from school were there and one of the guys brought his sister. Somehow, my weight was brought up. I don't know if I said something or if she said something. But she said that her brother had told her I had lost a lot of weight. Also, one of the other guys had said something to my friend that I had lost a lot of weight but he didn't want to say anything to me because he didn't want me to slap him. hahaha So people are noticing. Sometimes I still feel like I look the same and it is hard when I feel that way. Also, I feel like I don't have "going out" clothes. I was trying to explain this to my mom this evening and she had a hard time getting it. I ended up wearing a pair of jeans and a black boat neck 3/4 length sleeved shirt. I have decided that I am tall and there really isn't anything I can do about, so instead of wearing flip flops or flats I wore my boots. Go me! Yeah sometimes it is fun. I am sure I looked like a freak.

I was looking at someone signature on the weight watchers board. They were 5'10 and 187 lbs and a size 10! That is really weird to think that someday I might actually be able to wear a 10. I just want to get out of the 240's!

Blah! Another fat day. Please make it go away. Pretty please????

Today, just felt like a "fat day." I picked out an outfit that used to be one of my favorites, but it just doesn't fit right anymore. It was pretty simple: a pair of jeans, a black v neck t, and a striped zip up hoodie sweater. The black shirt was too big and the sweater, just doesn't feel right anymore. I did get a complement on the sweater though. Even though my clothes were too big, I still felt fat. Hopefully that was just a one day thing and I will wake up feeling awesome! =) I gained 1 lb this week so that puts me back at 245. I really am not suprised considering all the crap I ate over the past week. So maybe I will actually lose this next week if I stay on plan. I did have mexican tonight, but other than that splurge, I did amazingly well food wise. I even made it to the gym for an hour this morning before work! That was no easy task considering I was there before 7:30 AM. I think Tuesday and Thursday will be my early work out days.

Gorge is coming up and it would be so exciting if I managed to lose instead of gain for the 5 days I am in WA.

School starts tomorrow and I allready packed my lunch and got my oatmeal packet out for breakfast. I work from 8:30-12:30 and then class from 1:00-3:15. I will come back to my apartment for a little bit and probably take a nap. Then back to campus for a business thing with free food!!! I am sooo looking forward to the pinapple and strawberries that I know they will have!

ok I need to get some sleep before my big day tomorrow.