Oh Gym, how I have missed you! It has been two long weeks since our last date. Seriously, last night rocked. 20 minutes of weights and 65 minutes on the treadclimber was pure bliss. I can't wait for our next date!
oh and I got up this morning and walked for an hour. No sprints, but I did get up. I just rolled out of bed. Wearing my workout clothes to bed is definitely the way to go. I am not lazy, I am just thinking ahead.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Normal Eating?
What exactly is normal eating? For me it means not stringently counting points, calories, fat, not labeling food as good or bad, and most importantly enjoying what I eat! So I am going to tell what I ate yesterday. I know that it, by no means, met any healthy guidelines, but I did the best I could and I am not going to beat myself up over it.
Breakfast:
1 serving old fashioned oatmeal with less than 1/4 cup crasains. I know it was less even thought I didn't measure, just because I have measured it out so much I visually know.
Snack:
Large fiji apple
Lunch:
1/2 BBQ Chicken and onion quesadilla, tortilla chips, 2 oz of sour cream, salsa
Snack:
100 cal oreo bites
about 10 plain M&Ms
Dinner:
Black bean, great northern bean, rotel, and orzo pasta concoction
Single serve package of dark chocolate cadbury mini eggs
Woah. I don't feel like a deprived myself yesterday and I ate chocolate 3! times! I know I could have chosen a few different things to make my overall eating better for the day, but I didn't. I am ok with that. I enjoyed my lunch out and I was comfortable with all of my choices. I didn't associate guilt with anything I ate yesterday. Hopefully I will be able to keep this up.
Breakfast:
1 serving old fashioned oatmeal with less than 1/4 cup crasains. I know it was less even thought I didn't measure, just because I have measured it out so much I visually know.
Snack:
Large fiji apple
Lunch:
1/2 BBQ Chicken and onion quesadilla, tortilla chips, 2 oz of sour cream, salsa
Snack:
100 cal oreo bites
about 10 plain M&Ms
Dinner:
Black bean, great northern bean, rotel, and orzo pasta concoction
Single serve package of dark chocolate cadbury mini eggs
Woah. I don't feel like a deprived myself yesterday and I ate chocolate 3! times! I know I could have chosen a few different things to make my overall eating better for the day, but I didn't. I am ok with that. I enjoyed my lunch out and I was comfortable with all of my choices. I didn't associate guilt with anything I ate yesterday. Hopefully I will be able to keep this up.
Monday, April 07, 2008
America the Beautiful
I just got back from the screening of this documentary. It is a must see for anyone that has ever struggled with weight/body image/etc. At one point I was almost in tears because I could identify so closely with what was going on in the film
Speaking of body image, I don't have the best one of myself. But, I am working on it. I have been going to a counselor for the past month and it is the BEST decision I have made in a long time. I just got to a point where I really couldn't stay unhappy with my body. I have become a lot more aware of my feelings, how food makes me feel, and the actions of others. It has been a very enlightening experience. Since this is a public blog and a lot of the things I discuss with my counselor are pretty personal, I probably won't be sharing much of what happens, but I just wanted to let you all know it has been an amazing and eye opening experience. If you have any questions about the experience I would be more than happy to discuss them privately :)
I am also still learning about intuitive eating. One of the sections I just finished discussed ideal vs. realistic weight. Ideally I would never have to worry about my weight and I would be able to eat whatever I wanted. Ideally I would be able to try anything on and it would fit perfectly. Is that the case? No? Is it the case for most women/men? Probably not. So why am I tormenting myself with trying to get smaller? Good question.
I have maintained with in 10 lbs my weight for almost 2 years now. I can stay within that range and for the most part all of my clothes fit. However, some fit better at the upper range and some fit better at the lower thing. Yet, I still feel like a failure because I haven't lost what I ideal see as the last 25-30 lbs. I still beat myself up when I eat a muffin, even in the grand scheme of things I have had countless muffins over the past two years. I say I love food, but am I really enjoying it, if I beat myself up because I haven't lost the last 25-30 lbs? Nope, I feel guilt anytime I eat something "bad." Not anymore! I am not throwing in the towel, but I am really ready to appreciate and love my body. For the time being I feel I have reached a healthy weight and one that I KNOW I can maintain. I feel I have reached a REALISTIC weight. Besides my weight there are many other measures of health which need to be considered as well, all of which I fall into the healthy categories of. SO GO ME! I am healthy and I am ready to start enjoying my life and start living without guilt.
With all that being said, I will still blog about my feelings, food, and exercise. I know I am going to have fat days and I know I am going to have awesome days. I still want to be able to share them with you all!
Speaking of body image, I don't have the best one of myself. But, I am working on it. I have been going to a counselor for the past month and it is the BEST decision I have made in a long time. I just got to a point where I really couldn't stay unhappy with my body. I have become a lot more aware of my feelings, how food makes me feel, and the actions of others. It has been a very enlightening experience. Since this is a public blog and a lot of the things I discuss with my counselor are pretty personal, I probably won't be sharing much of what happens, but I just wanted to let you all know it has been an amazing and eye opening experience. If you have any questions about the experience I would be more than happy to discuss them privately :)
I am also still learning about intuitive eating. One of the sections I just finished discussed ideal vs. realistic weight. Ideally I would never have to worry about my weight and I would be able to eat whatever I wanted. Ideally I would be able to try anything on and it would fit perfectly. Is that the case? No? Is it the case for most women/men? Probably not. So why am I tormenting myself with trying to get smaller? Good question.
I have maintained with in 10 lbs my weight for almost 2 years now. I can stay within that range and for the most part all of my clothes fit. However, some fit better at the upper range and some fit better at the lower thing. Yet, I still feel like a failure because I haven't lost what I ideal see as the last 25-30 lbs. I still beat myself up when I eat a muffin, even in the grand scheme of things I have had countless muffins over the past two years. I say I love food, but am I really enjoying it, if I beat myself up because I haven't lost the last 25-30 lbs? Nope, I feel guilt anytime I eat something "bad." Not anymore! I am not throwing in the towel, but I am really ready to appreciate and love my body. For the time being I feel I have reached a healthy weight and one that I KNOW I can maintain. I feel I have reached a REALISTIC weight. Besides my weight there are many other measures of health which need to be considered as well, all of which I fall into the healthy categories of. SO GO ME! I am healthy and I am ready to start enjoying my life and start living without guilt.
With all that being said, I will still blog about my feelings, food, and exercise. I know I am going to have fat days and I know I am going to have awesome days. I still want to be able to share them with you all!
Sunday, April 06, 2008
No Weigh Monday!
That's right. I am not weighing myself tomorrow. I already know what is going to happen...a gain. I can tell just from the way my clothes are fitting, plus it is TOM. Last week Sunday-yesterday I ate: Chili's twice, Logan's twice, Cheesecake Factory for dessert, pizza, potato chips, quesadillas, more ice cream cake than I care to admit, and some other stuff. Oh and I only exercised twice. So yeah, I know what's coming, I just need to get my life back in order. My friend went home today, so that is sad, but at the same time good, because I don't need to eat out as much as I have been. Both my wallet and my waist will thank me. I have made soup for the upcoming week for some lunches/dinners. I do have tentative lunch plans for tomorrow and lunch out on tuesday. That's it. The other 3 lunches I will be making myself and preferably hitting up the gym as well.
Tomorrow I am going to see this movie: America the Beautiful after work tomorrow.
That's all for now. I have a lot more to talk about and hopefully will get around to it this week.
Thank you all for your comments to my question! It is interesting to see how each of your personalities came out in your answers. It was like I could almost hear you saying it! So while that guy who made the comments, was an ass, one of his friends was not. I broke one of my rules (I'll tell more about why I have this rule later) and added the guy as a friend on a social networking site and just said it was nice to meet him. He pretty much replied with the same. We might be hanging out this week! I don't want to get my hopes up, but it is still fun to think about :)
Tomorrow I am going to see this movie: America the Beautiful after work tomorrow.
That's all for now. I have a lot more to talk about and hopefully will get around to it this week.
Thank you all for your comments to my question! It is interesting to see how each of your personalities came out in your answers. It was like I could almost hear you saying it! So while that guy who made the comments, was an ass, one of his friends was not. I broke one of my rules (I'll tell more about why I have this rule later) and added the guy as a friend on a social networking site and just said it was nice to meet him. He pretty much replied with the same. We might be hanging out this week! I don't want to get my hopes up, but it is still fun to think about :)
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